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Încă 12 școli din România au trecut în scenariul roșu, în ultima azi. Situația la nivel național - [Actualitate][Educatie]

2020.09.18 13:52 niuz-bot Încă 12 școli din România au trecut în scenariul roșu, în ultima azi. Situația la nivel național - [Actualitate][Educatie]

Alte 12 uități de învățământ din România au trecut, în ultimele 24 de ore, în scenariul roșu, adică școală exclusiv online. Potrivit ultimelor date transmise de Ministerul Educației, la acest moment sunt 312 școli și grădinițe în scenariul roșu, iar în scenariul galben sunt 4.391 unități de învățământ, cu 16 mai multe față de ziua de joi.
Citeste in continuare: https://www.hotnews.ro/stiri-educatie-24292789-inca-12-scoli-din-romania-trecut-scenariul-rosu-ultima-azi-situatia-nivel-national.htm
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2020.09.13 21:18 BloodyPassion Apple devices are being hacked

I'm telling right away - TL;DR - I,m facing unprecedented hacking attack on Apple family of devices and need help. I'm in San Francisco and need someone who can do forensics of my mac mini and help to protect myself from people attacking me.
I'm the owner of 2 Macbooks pro, mac mini, Ipad, Iphone and iwatch, 1 apple id and 3 gmail accounts.
Everything was fine till August 3. Well I was dumb enough to use 3 variants of the same password with all my accounts. Implementing 1password or another password manager I was delaying for quite some time out of laziness I guess. We use lastpass at work and I silently hate it so didn't want to deal with something like that at home. It was an introduction. I'lll try to be as brief and as detailed as I can now.
Some details became a blur because I'm literally on a verge of a nervous breakdown at the moment.
On August 3 all my email accounts including apple id were hacked. Taken over by someone for at least several hours. Among those only 1 account is main, others are secondary, for job search, another for facebook and ebay, and the last one - apple id - for dating sites.
I was able to restore access to my accounts using my phone number within several hours. I work in big tech and our company was attacked by some people who used texting phishing tactics. First I thought it was connected to work and even filed a ticket telling them that my phone is hacked (there was some weird behavior on the phone) but work stuff seemed unaffected and ticket was closed. Hackers also got to my NAS where I has some old movies and frankly lots of porn collected since 2007. NAS wasn't connected, I mean I didn't have access to it because my wifi point went offline and I didn't bother to go to landlords and set it up (we have internet from landlords, one ISP but 2 different networks) but they somehow were able to take the porn library out, not the files but links to them. The stuff was from torrents so I decided ti get rid of the NAS and its contents, moreover I watch porn legally online now, torrents were in the past.
For several weeks it was quiet. Meanwhile I got a membership from Lookout and Lifelock because I had pics of my documents in icloud library: ssn, driver's license, medical insurance cards, Russian passport etc. It was literally an identity theft. Meanwhile Lookout informed me that my credentials were on dark web monthly since January 2020 and my SSN is public information.
As I said, 3 week were quiet. And then it started. All my emails were taken over again. First I found hidden backups of my machines with some video files on my macbook. Tried to delete them using sudo - didn't work, not enough rights. WTF. Then I pulled all the needed info to the cloud and decided to wipe the macbook and install the OS from scratch. Laptop started acting weird fast and I wasn't able to shut it down. Force quit didn't work, fan sounded as if it's a plain and it's going to take off. I had an impression someone controls my machine and erased if from icloud. Well, that's what I thought. Next time when I turned it on, there was a password on a disk. Password that I didn't add. Attempt to log in recovery mode led to grey screen with a passcode which I didn't implement either. After next reboot I discovered firmware password which was removed by Mobile Kangaroo but as for disk they told me to change it, thank god ssd are cheap now. Machine became a brick without a new disk. Apple mac genius bar was able to remove the lost passcode and install the OS only today. Then I had an awful Saturday on September 6th - they almost induced hysteria by taking over my accounts many times during the day. I changed the passwords numerous times before it. I have 2FA, mixed, with sms and authenticator app. But still they were able bypass these steps and changed the passwords to my accounts. I was barely able to take the accounts back but then started thinking that they know what I type as new password and somehow know the 2FA code. It didn't feel right, Apple is so secure. So I switched to iphone - allegedly the most secure device and changed the passwords from it. It seemed to help.Meanwhile it turned out they downloaded the whole archive from my gmail account since 2009 - there is such functionality. And also all my icloud. I have no idea what emails they send and where and what they deleted when they controlled my account. I know nothing about hacking but I had an impression they used safari to go to some websites - such as datadog, howtogeek, appletoolbox and lookout/legal and trendmicro/legal. Btw I have 4 antivirus apps, none of them found anything. Then I installed Little snitch, saw some incoming connections, not sure what it was, and then noticed tht my chrome started having hundreds and then thousands of outgoing connections to different Ipv4 addresses. Packets were rather small though.
Nightmare just started. IT turned out they knew my gmail passwords that I set up from the phone - they just sat quietly and waited for something. My mac mini started showing strange file with extension .prefPane in recents and different system folders in history where I haven't been. Then I finally intalled Google Wifi app and discovered unknown machine with the same name as my mac mini and almost the same mac address. It was sitting on our wifi for a week and downloaded 46gb of data. I have a screenshot, not on this machine unfortunately. I shut down my mac mini and didn't turn it on since then. I started checking my devices and discovered that my work laptop laptop also had some .prefPane files in history and bunch of system folders which I didn't touch. I know almost nothing about macOS structure and can just look at hidden files, that's it. I was more than concerned, told InfoSec at work that something is happenning, had 3 hours conversation with 2 serious men who told me that according to the logs my work machine is safe but personal stuff is probably breached. Judging by the recent files showing up in dropbox, icloud and google drive. Files which I didn't touch t all and many of them have sensitive and confidential information, health-related for example. Right there I decided to implement 1password but with all the craziness and password changing everywhere I saw that it didn't help - they still were able to change the password and take account back to them. Or after I changed the password I saw 4 different devices having access to my gmail account. I changed my laster password several time and after 1password had 21 most important logins and vault with pretty valuable documents - I finally forgot my masterpassword. I remember the words but specil characters in the end are a blur - I was tired and couldn't focus and forgot to write it down. So farewell my stuff in 1 password - unless I find the right combination 1 day. I made a conclusion that they were able to see my screen. Btw they bought apowersoft from my account, I found 1 email they apparently forgot to delete but I didn't find the software on my machines.... Apple support said everything what I say happening is highly unlikely especially on ios devices since they have government level of protection. But I see that with my own eyes... Also there is an army of bluetooth beacons around me, in very residential neighborhood. Many of them are literally near according to BLE Scanner. There is also BlueZ 5.44 device which connected to my Iphone bluetooth without any permission from me. I have no idea for how long. I think that's how hacking started... Then I discovered that my calls and messages were forwarded to bunch of devices which has the same names as mine but there are several mac minis there etc. My google voice had 2 or 3 extra devices to forward to.... Btw who am I - mid level QA engineer who is just studying programming and trying to do some automation at work. My technical level is pretty low. I saved some money since I moved to America. Not a lot, San Francisco is expensive city. I was born and raised in Russia but never had access to any secret info or high ranking persons, no one can be influenced by pressure on me, I'm a regular gay guy who fled from difficult life and persecution of gays in Russia and been living here in SFBA for the last 7 years.... So I'm nobody but I had a feeling there is team with 24/7 surveillance on me - I even thought it's government but government can silently spy on you and the come with subpoena or arrest order. These guys literally torture. Later - more. I definitely notice my ios devices went rogue. Face id stopped working and I had to reset it every time. Today passcode stopped working and I couldn't unlock the phone - had to wipe it using recovery mode. Created 2 wifi networks at home, one already had 2 unknown apple devices, one of the mac addresses is again very similar to mine. The biggest torture of this weekend - untransferable authenticator app where I keep 2FA codes for work and personal stuff. I spent bunch of time on ipad, freshly wiped via roommates mac, adding the codes to new transferrable app and when was about to transfer, they used the encryption function of the app with the password which can't be reset. Authy, I hate you as much as 1password. So all my codes turned out to be locked and useless. I wiped my ipad clean and started from scratch with 2 different apps - one for work, another or personal stuff. You not gonna believe it - they suppressed internet on ipad. It's connected to wifi or mobile spot but there is no internet icon on the upper right and it's not connecting. How is it possible on ios? Then my passcode on apple watch changed by itself before that showing keyboard on my phone 3 times. Then face id stopped working and passcode on my iphone changed. I'm not kidding. It's after I finished collecting 2FA accounts again. So I can't open my phone! The work of a half day went to shit. Then I tried to turn off the passcode on ipad and it didn't work. Some items disappeared from ios menu, for example Siri and Search... I talked to Lifelock - they said they gonna monitor my ssn, name, etc, like they always do. Wrote to Lookout, they answered with phone number where I need to call. Also need to call FTC, number was given by Lifelock. No money disappeared from my accounts, my saving account is restricted, credit bureaus are frozen. I'm afraid with all that info they have about me they want to take over my apple id or just commit cyber crimes on my behalf. I'm scared and don't know what to do, how to protect myself and my devices from everything happening. I can't live normal life for the last 2 weeks. Thank god people were sympathetic at work but my friends din't really believe me saying Apple has high class protection from such shit. But I saw all that with my own eyes. It takes them about couple of days to hack a freshly wiped phone or ipad, and less than several hours - freshly wiped mac. My roomie's apple devices seem to be unaffected despite the fact he downloads tons of torrents. Btw one more thing - on August 13 Lookout informed me that sim card is taken out of my phon despite the phone was in my pocket. On August 22 Lookout sent notification that sim went online. There were couple of calls to ATT on my behalf that I didn't do. All in all I live in hell last 2 weeks and need to get out of this crazy situation. I looked for some cybersecurity firms but they all work with prevention and with corporations, not individuals. Also my facebook was taken over but I announced it hacked and it's blocked now and neither of us can regain access because I have the email and hackers added their phone where they get 2FA which I ned to log in. No one contacted me asking for ransom or anything. I don't understand what's going on. Please help.
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2020.09.13 13:53 BloodyPassion Attack on apple family of devices happening

I'm telling right away - TL;DR - I,m facing unprecedented hacking attack on Apple family of devices and need help. I'm in San Francisco and need someone who can do forensics of my mac mini and help to protect myself from people attacking me.
I'm the owner of 2 Macbooks pro, mac mini, Ipad, Iphone and iwatch, 1 apple id and 3 gmail accounts.
Everything was fine till August 3. Well I was dumb enough to use 3 variants of the same password with all my accounts. Implementing 1password or another password manager I was delaying for quite some time out of laziness I guess. We use lastpass at work and I silently hate it so didn't want to deal with something like that at home. It was an introduction. I'lll try to be as brief and as detailed as I can now.
Some details became a blur because I'm literally on a verge of a nervous breakdown at the moment.
On August 3 all my email accounts including apple id were hacked. Taken over by someone for at least several hours. Among those only 1 account is main, others are secondary, for job search, another for facebook and ebay, and the last one - apple id - for dating sites.
I was able to restore access to my accounts using my phone number within several hours. I work in big tech and our company was attacked by some people who used texting phishing tactics. First I thought it was connected to work and even filed a ticket telling them that my phone is hacked (there was some weird behavior on the phone) but work stuff seemed unaffected and ticket was closed. Hackers also got to my NAS where I has some old movies and frankly lots of porn collected since 2007. NAS wasn't connected, I mean I didn't have access to it because my wifi point went offline and I didn't bother to go to landlords and set it up (we have internet from landlords, one ISP but 2 different networks) but they somehow were able to take the porn library out, not the files but links to them. The stuff was from torrents so I decided ti get rid of the NAS and its contents, moreover I watch porn legally online now, torrents were in the past.
For several weeks it was quiet. Meanwhile I got a membership from Lookout and Lifelock because I had pics of my documents in icloud library: ssn, driver's license, medical insurance cards, Russian passport etc. It was literally an identity theft. Meanwhile Lookout informed me that my credentials were on dark web monthly since January 2020 and my SSN is public information.
As I said, 3 week were quiet. And then it started. All my emails were taken over again. First I found hidden backups of my machines with some video files on my macbook. Tried to delete them using sudo - didn't work, not enough rights. WTF. Then I pulled all the needed info to the cloud and decided to wipe the macbook and install the OS from scratch. Laptop started acting weird fast and I wasn't able to shut it down. Force quit didn't work, fan sounded as if it's a plain and it's going to take off. I had an impression someone controls my machine and erased if from icloud. Well, that's what I thought. Next time when I turned it on, there was a password on a disk. Password that I didn't add. Attempt to log in recovery mode led to grey screen with a passcode which I didn't implement either. After next reboot I discovered firmware password which was removed by Mobile Kangaroo but as for disk they told me to change it, thank god ssd are cheap now. Machine became a brick without a new disk. Apple mac genius bar was able to remove the lost passcode and install the OS only today. Then I had an awful Saturday on September 6th - they almost induced hysteria by taking over my accounts many times during the day. I changed the passwords numerous times before it. I have 2FA, mixed, with sms and authenticator app. But still they were able bypass these steps and changed the passwords to my accounts. I was barely able to take the accounts back but then started thinking that they know what I type as new password and somehow know the 2FA code. It didn't feel right, Apple is so secure. So I switched to iphone - allegedly the most secure device and changed the passwords from it. It seemed to help.Meanwhile it turned out they downloaded the whole archive from my gmail account since 2009 - there is such functionality. And also all my icloud. I have no idea what emails they send and where and what they deleted when they controlled my account. I know nothing about hacking but I had an impression they used safari to go to some websites - such as datadog, howtogeek, appletoolbox and lookout/legal and trendmicro/legal. Btw I have 4 antivirus apps, none of them found anything. Then I installed Little snitch, saw some incoming connections, not sure what it was, and then noticed tht my chrome started having hundreds and then thousands of outgoing connections to different Ipv4 addresses. Packets were rather small though.
Nightmare just started. IT turned out they knew my gmail passwords that I set up from the phone - they just sat quietly and waited for something. My mac mini started showing strange file with extension .prefPane in recents and different system folders in history where I haven't been. Then I finally intalled Google Wifi app and discovered unknown machine with the same name as my mac mini and almost the same mac address. It was sitting on our wifi for a week and downloaded 46gb of data. I have a screenshot, not on this machine unfortunately. I shut down my mac mini and didn't turn it on since then. I started checking my devices and discovered that my work laptop laptop also had some .prefPane files in history and bunch of system folders which I didn't touch. I know almost nothing about macOS structure and can just look at hidden files, that's it. I was more than concerned, told InfoSec at work that something is happenning, had 3 hours conversation with 2 serious men who told me that according to the logs my work machine is safe but personal stuff is probably breached. Judging by the recent files showing up in dropbox, icloud and google drive. Files which I didn't touch t all and many of them have sensitive and confidential information, health-related for example. Right there I decided to implement 1password but with all the craziness and password changing everywhere I saw that it didn't help - they still were able to change the password and take account back to them. Or after I changed the password I saw 4 different devices having access to my gmail account. I changed my laster password several time and after 1password had 21 most important logins and vault with pretty valuable documents - I finally forgot my masterpassword. I remember the words but specil characters in the end are a blur - I was tired and couldn't focus and forgot to write it down. So farewell my stuff in 1 password - unless I find the right combination 1 day. I made a conclusion that they were able to see my screen. Btw they bought apowersoft from my account, I found 1 email they apparently forgot to delete but I didn't find the software on my machines.... Apple support said everything what I say happening is highly unlikely especially on ios devices since they have government level of protection. But I see that with my own eyes... Also there is an army of bluetooth beacons around me, in very residential neighborhood. Many of them are literally near according to BLE Scanner. There is also BlueZ 5.44 device which connected to my Iphone bluetooth without any permission from me. I have no idea for how long. I think that's how hacking started... Then I discovered that my calls and messages were forwarded to bunch of devices which has the same names as mine but there are several mac minis there etc. My google voice had 2 or 3 extra devices to forward to.... Btw who am I - mid level QA engineer who is just studying programming and trying to do some automation at work. My technical level is pretty low. I saved some money since I moved to America. Not a lot, San Francisco is expensive city. I was born and raised in Russia but never had access to any secret info or high ranking persons, no one can be influenced by pressure on me, I'm a regular gay guy who fled from difficult life and persecution of gays in Russia and been living here in SFBA for the last 7 years.... So I'm nobody but I had a feeling there is team with 24/7 surveillance on me - I even thought it's government but government can silently spy on you and the come with subpoena or arrest order. These guys literally torture. Later - more. I definitely notice my ios devices went rogue. Face id stopped working and I had to reset it every time. Today passcode stopped working and I couldn't unlock the phone - had to wipe it using recovery mode. Created 2 wifi networks at home, one already had 2 unknown apple devices, one of the mac addresses is again very similar to mine. The biggest torture of this weekend - untransferable authenticator app where I keep 2FA codes for work and personal stuff. I spent bunch of time on ipad, freshly wiped via roommates mac, adding the codes to new transferrable app and when was about to transfer, they used the encryption function of the app with the password which can't be reset. Authy, I hate you as much as 1password. So all my codes turned out to be locked and useless. I wiped my ipad clean and started from scratch with 2 different apps - one for work, another or personal stuff. You not gonna believe it - they suppressed internet on ipad. It's connected to wifi or mobile spot but there is no internet icon on the upper right and it's not connecting. How is it possible on ios? Then my passcode on apple watch changed by itself before that showing keyboard on my phone 3 times. Then face id stopped working and passcode on my iphone changed. I'm not kidding. It's after I finished collecting 2FA accounts again. So I can't open my phone! The work of a half day went to shit. Then I tried to turn off the passcode on ipad and it didn't work. Some items disappeared from ios menu, for example Siri and Search... I talked to Lifelock - they said they gonna monitor my ssn, name, etc, like they always do. Wrote to Lookout, they answered with phone number where I need to call. Also need to call FTC, number was given by Lifelock. No money disappeared from my accounts, my saving account is restricted, credit bureaus are frozen. I'm afraid with all that info they have about me they want to take over my apple id or just commit cyber crimes on my behalf. I'm scared and don't know what to do, how to protect myself and my devices from everything happening. I can't live normal life for the last 2 weeks. Thank god people were sympathetic at work but my friends din't really believe me saying Apple has high class protection from such shit. But I saw all that with my own eyes. It takes them about couple of days to hack a freshly wiped phone or ipad, and less than several hours - freshly wiped mac. My roomie's apple devices seem to be unaffected despite the fact he downloads tons of torrents. Btw one more thing - on August 13 Lookout informed me that sim card is taken out of my phon despite the phone was in my pocket. On August 22 Lookout sent notification that sim went online. There were couple of calls to ATT on my behalf that I didn't do. All in all I live in hell last 2 weeks and need to get out of this crazy situation. I looked for some cybersecurity firms but they all work with prevention and with corporations, not individuals. Also my facebook was taken over but I announced it hacked and it's blocked now and neither of us can regain access because I have the email and hackers added their phone where they get 2FA which I ned to log in. No one contacted me asking for ransom or anything. I don't understand what's going on. Please help.
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2020.09.12 16:38 pizzanini_ 22 [F4M] Tinatamad ako mag-Bumble HAHA so...

Honestly just wanna get on online dating apps because i wanna meet new people that dont necessarily lead to romantic connections (pero kung makaswerte......) but mAn nakikita ko nang ang daming oras kakainin nun sa araw ko. Pero naghahanap lang din ng bagong kausap, bagong boses, bagong pananaw.
Alam ko rin F4M linagay ko, mostly because para mala-dating app kunwari HAHA but im open to any sex and gender kung g ka!
Quick summary: head usually full of words and music, usually consuming water or coffee and recently hopia HAHA, funemployed kaya busy-busyhan, naglalaro ng Among Us, birthday ng tatay ko bukas kaya wag masyado mag-expect ng immediate replies tomorrow 😂
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2020.09.11 12:47 niuz-bot Cum arată noul an școlar în pandemie: În peste 12.600 de școli din România copiii se întorc în bănci / Ultimele date transmise de Ministerul Educației - [Actualitate][Educatie]

Elevii din peste 12.600 de școli din România se întorc în bănci, începând de luni, în timp ce în peste 5.100 de unități de învățământ cursurile vor fi în scenariul hibrid - prezența fizică și ore online, prin rotație - și în scenariul roșu - exclusiv online, conform ultimelor date transmise vineri de Ministerul Educației.
Citeste in continuare: https://www.hotnews.ro/stiri-educatie-24280075-cum-arata-noul-scolar-pandemie-peste-12-600-scoli-din-romania-copiii-intorc-banci-ultimele-date-transmise-ministerul-educatiei.htm
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2020.09.11 11:56 OccurrentEpstein May naka-try na ba dito ng Balance Transfer?

What I know:
  1. Her card na ipapa-BT sana is from BDO Classic to SB Platinum minimum na 20k na itratransfer. Main account na daw niya kasi is SB so gusto na niya pa-close BDO.
  2. She tried na daw sa online portal magrequest pero nalologout siya and minsan ang bagal ng OTP masend.
  3. Hindi din daw siya makaconnect sa hotline.
  4. Statement date niya is on the 24th.
Have 0 experience pa on this kaya asking lang if meron na dito nakaexperience.
Thank you.
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2020.09.10 22:17 niuz-bot Monica Anisiei: Elevii din 7.116 școli merg la cursuri, în 2.711 se aplică scenariul hibrid, iar în 101 școli copiii vor învăța online - [Actualitate][Educatie]

Ministrul Educației Monica Anisiei a anunțat joi, după o ședință la minister la care a participat și vicepremierul Raluca Turcan, că de luni elevii din 7.116 școli merg la cursuri, în alte 2.711 va fi aplicat scenariul hibrid, iar copiii din 101 școli vor învăța online, precizând că încă sunt așteptate date din unele județe, informează News.ro.
Citeste in continuare: https://www.hotnews.ro/stiri-educatie-24279256-monica-anisiei-elevii-din-7-116-scoli-merg-cursuri-2-711-aplica-scenariul-hibrid-iar-101-scoala-face-online.htm
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2020.09.09 00:25 memafine Singleness, pls leave me

Hayyyy ako lang ba yung na kaka feel na magigiing single nalang ako forever xD nasa early 20s palang naman ako pero ewan naiisip ko kasi kapag di nako mag hanap mawawalan nako ng gana sa mga dating dating nayan --its too draining talga for me lalo na need ko to consciously put effort kasi guys kami lalo na hinahanap ng girls yung may humor daw ay putcha naging clown. "Kusa lang darating yan" - yea sure tama naman pero more chances if ikaw mismo mag hahanap --para once na meron na ko makakapg focus na ko sa things na important din like career, hobbies. I just want someone na maka vibe other than friends.
Nung college kasi upto now parang mas trip ko pa kasama mga tropa/homies kaya di ko naiisip mag karoon ng gf--pero ewan 22 nako wala parin di naman talga kasi ako nag hahanap. Now na working na less time na parang gusto ko lang mag karoon ng special someone ewan.
i guess i have to quit online dating for a while(for months).
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2020.09.08 15:18 niuz-bot Sibiu: Autorităţile nu au date privind numărul elevilor care au absentat de la cursurile online în anul şcolar trecut - [Educatie]

Autorităţile din judeţul Sibiu nu au date privind numărul de elevi care au absentat de la cursurile online, din martie până în iunie, Instituţia Prefectului precizând, într-un comunicat, că săptămâna aceasta va fi emis un ordin privind prevenirea absenteismului şi abandonului ...
Citeste in continuare: https://www.agerpres.ro/educatie-stiinta/2020/09/08/sibiu-autoritatile-nu-au-date-privind-numarul-elevilor-care-au-absentat-de-la-cursurile-online-in-anul-scolar-trecut--569349
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2020.09.07 08:37 nosetalgique A Rhinoplasty Experience Part 1

Hello everyone.
I made this post as a way of paying it forward since I relied on internet posts lang din when I was doing my research about rhinoplasty. I hope this is helpful to those who are considering it and if you have any questions, feel free to PM me!
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Why a nose job?
To put it simply, I do not like my nose LOL. Maybe it’s the constant teasing since childhood or maybe it’s the objective assessment na yes, it is too wide and flat. I think I have okay features naman but I feel like they somehow get overshadowed by my nose.
So what do I do about it? I don’t want to do fillers (parang waste of money lang for me) and yet I’m tired of not being able to take pictures without being conscious of how my nose looks. I’ve known about rhinoplasty since I was younger but it wasn’t until about two years ago that I seriously considered it. I looked at my finances early this year and realised I could do it—I don’t have to touch my emergency fund, I will still have my savings and most importantly, I won’t be in debt or anything. I think that’s when I knew I was going to do it talaga. I scoured through hundreds of pages from Pinoy Exchange, Female Network, Real Self and Purse Forum. There are also some people here who shared their experiences and I couldn’t be more grateful to them.
After having all this information, I proceeded to do what is possibly the most important step in my rhino journey: choosing my surgeon. From the very beginning, I was set on going to 1) a plastic surgeon and 2) someone who has been doing this for at least ten years. Pro tip: PAPRAS is the local surgical society for this, if your doctor is there then you can trust that you are in good hands.
When I started my research two years ago, my initial list of surgeons consisted of ten names. As I look at it now, funnily enough the surgeon I chose was #10 on that list! For reals kakatingin ko lang sa list sa phone ko for this post, it’s called “Candidates” and nasa huli siya talaga. Well thank heavens that I eventually found my way to the right doctor!
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The consultation
The doctor I chose is known to be very private, which I like—he doesn’t have an Instagram page with B&As, nor does he post pictures on his newly created website. He probably built his practice from excellent word of mouth lang talaga and I prefer it that way. At least I know my pics won’t end up somewhere without my permission!
I contacted my surgeon via email (from PAPRAS) to book a consult and I got a schedule for exactly a week later. When I arrived, there was one patient for suture removal and another for surgery. Based on the posts that I read online, this is probably what his daily schedule looks like—one surgery lang talaga per day and then the rest for post op na and if may time pa, consults like me.
While waiting for the post op patient to be done, I had a chat with his surgery patient (hello Miss R if you’re here!). Hers is a revision case, the infected Goretex implant (from another surgeon) had to be removed by Doc and IIRC she can then choose to have another surgery after six months pa. She was super generous with post op tips for my “virgin nose” and she assured me that I went to the right doctor. Super nakaka-happy lang hehe.
My consult went fantastic! After the usual introductions, I told Doc that I’ll grab my phone before we start kasi I have a list of questions and he was like, “Fire away.” And I did. I don’t think I’ve ever vented about my nose to someone before haha. I like how he knows his stuff, as in really knows it and he answered every question that I had. I mean I was there for about 40 minutes! Also, he just gives off this very chill uncle vibe :D If you frequent rhinoplasty groups you probably know who this doctor is already but I’m not sure we can drop names here so PM me nalang :)
Towards the end of the consult we tried to set a schedule but it’s two months away pa. I asked him if we can have it earlier (I just really want to start the healing process na) and he said to contact him later that week kasi baka may mag open na slot for next week. The reason for this is the swab test—some patients can’t have the results before their date kasi super swamped din ang testing centres ngayon and the OR is strict about this (as they should be).
I texted him after three days and true enough, there is an opening for next week na! As of this writing I am scheduled to take a PCR test pa but if everything goes well, this time next week I’ll probably be on the operating table na.
There is still a tiny detail that we have to settle before the surgery—and it has to do with using an implant. Basically my concern is if I can get away with enhancing the alars and tip lang and not use an implant na for my bridge. There is always going to be an infection risk kasi with implants—some complications manifest years after the operation and I just don’t think I can live with that. Also I told him I’m not after a super dramatic change (in fact I remember telling him during the consult that I want an Asian-looking nose pa din, preference ko lang naman) so if he says we can do it without an implant then that’s what I’m going to have.
That’s it for Part 1! If you guys have any thoughts about this please let me know lang in the comments or send me a PM :)
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2020.09.06 11:24 baconbitsmargarita 28 [F4M] Looking for friends

Hello! I am really bored and got nothing to do. Everyone I frequently talk to are out and about, and here I am, holed in the apartment alone.
I used to post here looking for hook-ups but while they’re successful, that lifestyle is so tiring. I was about to post looking for dating potentials but what are even my selling points lmao.
I instead decided to seek online friendship with opposite sex because I severely lack on that area, and they offer me different perspectives on matters I don’t usually hear. I am a bit shy din in person. ☹️Unexpectedly, I gained a male friend (strictly platonic) this quarantine from Reddit so it doesn’t hurt to have more, right? You can tell me what’s bothering you lately and I will try my best to listen to you. You can share with me tipid tips and DIYs or woodworks you’ve done cos I’m always amazed at that. You can tell me about your milestones/failures in fitness and mental health. You can make fun of my low scores in games because I swear I don’t and can’t play videogames. You can tell me how you’ve been simping on someone for a while now and let me tell you why it’s bullshit to revolve your world on someone who doesn’t want to be with you.
I am open to men of every age, every size, and every status. Depending on your status and location, I am also open to the possibility of leveling it up to something serious or NSFW, but chemistry or attraction has to be there first. Ayoko yung sapilitan magpaka-constant kasi parang utang na loob ko pa na available ka lol. I am not online all the time so I hope you don’t mind if I’m slow in replying (actually slow akong tao at very sabaw in general. Just to set expectations.) I am not up to meet you personally soon because duh covid unless babantayan ko bawat galaw mo for two weeks to a month. I did it last July but I still do not feel safe doing it.
To start a conversation, choose one (or lahat kung bibo ka) the following questions for you to answer: 1. Top 5 movie recommendations 2. Top 5 pornstars you’ll bang with and will you marry them 3. Your 5 recent favorite memes (I’m cool with politics, just not very well-verse with it, so forgive me) 4. The screenshot of your personal Youtube newsfeed (cover your name ofc) 5. Personal experience on your favorite community outreach program/activity . No matter how pogi or funny or date-able you are, I find it a big deal how a person is compassionate towards other people. I had heated discussion with a Redditor I like during quarantine and ayun di na kami nag usap lol. 6. Biggest regret in life
Please end the answer with your Telegram username 😄 I am also cool with Reddit chat only.
Physical traits and credentials matter to some people so I’m gonna say I’m 5/10, fat, not from big 4. I ghost people who replies with one-liner. Also please tell me if you don’t speak or understand Filipino or our culture. I have encountered foreigners or Filipinos born & raised outside PH who attempted to talk and meet with me but turned out they cannot understand what I was talking about or the references I made during our conversation. We can talk about our sex lives but I don’t feel horny at the moment soooo sexting is out. Grabe ang haba na neto baka walang pumatol LOL SEE YOU IN MY INBOX 📨
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2020.09.02 13:25 Macewindu92 Anime Wars Idea

Being a fan of Star Wars as well as an Anime freak, I thought it would be aweaome to do an Anime version of Star Wars, with your favorite Anime characters cast in the roles of your favorite Star Wars characters. Here is who I casted:
Death Gun (Sword Art Online) as Darth Vader
Edward Elric (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Obi-Wan Kenobi
Natsu Dragneel (Fairy Tail) as Han Solo
Saber (Fate) as Yoda
Wendy Marvel (Fairy Tail) as Luke Skywalker
Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez (Bleach) as Darth Maul
Happy (Fairy Tail) as Chewbacca
Lucy Heartfilia (Fairy Tail) as Leia Organa
Yui (Sword Art Online) as R2-D2
Atem (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Qui-Gon Jinn
Ichigo Kurosaki (Bleach) as Din Djarin/The Mandalorian
Madara Uchiha (Naruto) as Emperor Palpatine
Mokuba Kaiba (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Boba Fett
Kisuke Urahara (Bleach) as Lando Calrissian
Sakura Kinomoto (Cardcaptor Sakura) as Ahsoka Tano
Kazuto "Kirito" Kirigaya (Sword Art Online) as Anakin Skywalker
Nel (Bleach) as The Child
Piccolo (Dragon Ball Z) as Mace Windu
Alphonse Elric (Fullmetal Alchemist) as C-3PO
Nnoitra Gilga (Bleach) as General Grievous
Quinella (Sword Art Online) as Count Dooku
Erwin Smith (Attack On Titan) as Admiral Ackbar
Kirei Kotomine (Fate) as Grand Moff Tarkin
Sakura Matou (Fate) as Ben Solo/Kylo Ren
Seto Kaiba (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Jango Fett
Ursula/Madame Boss (Pokemon) as Jabba the Hutt
Ino Yamanaka (Naruto) as Jyn Erso
Asuna Yuuki (Sword Art Online) as Padme Amidala
Yuki Nagato (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya) as K-2SO
Lelouch vi Britannia (Code Geass) as Revan
Dordoni Alessandro Del Socaccio (Bleach) as IG-11
Ling Yao (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Chirrut Imwe
Sarada Uchiha (Naruto) as Rey
Luna (Sailor Moon) as BB-8
Annie Leonhardt (Attack On Titan) as Asajj Ventress
Melissa Mao (Full Metal Panic) as Cara Dune
Ash Ketchum (Pokemon) as Wedge Antilles
Krillin (Dragon Ball Z) as Kuill
Jellal Fernandes (Fairy Tail) as Plo Koon
Boruto Uzumaki (Naruto) as Poe Dameron
King Bradley (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Grand Admiral Thrawn
Roy Mustang (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Captain Rex
Wahl Eehto (Fairy Tail) as IG-88
Broly (Dragon Ball Z) as Savage Opress
Sai (Naruto) as Cassian Andor
Fu (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Baze Malbus
Szayel Aporro Granz (Bleach) as Director Orson Krennic
Shirou Emiya (Fate) as Cal Kestis
Gajeel Redfox (Fairy Tail) as Saw Gerrera
Crocodile (One Piece) as Moff Gideon
Zabuza Momochi (Naruto) as Cad Bane
Layla Heartfilia (Fairy Tail) as Senator Bail Organa
Jushiro Ukitake (Bleach) as Kit Fisto
Saito Hajime (Rurouni Kenshin) as Greef Karga
Shino Aburame (Naruto) as Ki-Adi Mundi
Renji Abarai (Bleach) as Kanan Jarrus
Bandit Keith (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Greedo
Retsu Unohana (Bleach) as Shaak Ti
Eugeo (Sword Art Online) as Finn
Frieza (Dragon Ball Z) as Darth Bane
Izuru Kira (Bleach) as Nien Nunb
Naruto Uzumaki (Naruto) as Ezra Bridger
Cobra (Fairy Tail) as Bossk
Rukia Kuchiki (Bleach) as Hera Syndulla
Hinata Hyuga (Naruto) as Sabine Wren
Kikyo (Inuyasha) as Aayla Secura
Nunnally vi Britannia (Code Geass) as Mon Mothma
T.K. (Digimon) as Biggs Darklighter
Lisanna Strauss (Fairy Tail) as Qi'ra
Gin Ichimaru (Bleach) as Tobias Beckett
Maes Hughes (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Fives
Tails (Sonic X) as Babu Frik
Carla (Fairy Tail) as BD-1
Sui-Feng (Bleach) as Bo-Katan Kryze
Midori Kirigaya (Sword Art Online) as Uncle Owen & Aunt Beru
Merlin (Seven Deadly Sins) as Maz Kanata
Izzy Izumi (Digimon) as Echo
Dimaria Yesta (Fairy Tail) as Captain Phasma
Teru Mikami (Death Note) as General Maximilian Veers
Inuyasha (Inuyasha) as Garazeb "Zeb" Orrelios
Kain Fuery (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Jek Tono Porkins
Kiyomi Takada (Death Note) as The Client
Zeref Dragneel (Fairy Tail) as The Son
Jeremiah Gottwald (Code Geass) as Admiral Firmus Piett
Weevil Underwood (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Sebulba
Medusa Gorgon (Soul Eater) as Mother Talzin
Armin Arlert (Attack On Titan) as Bodhi Rook
Hiyori Sarugaki (Bleach) as Chopper
Light Yagami (Death Note) as General Hux
Jaken (Inuyasha) as Watto
Ryoko Hakubi (Tenchi Muyo) as Hondo Ohnaka
Winry Rockbell (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Satine Kryze
Sumire Kakei (Naruto) as Zorii Bliss
Eren Yeager (Attack On Titan) as Quinlan Vos
Sachi (Sword Art Online) as Shmi Skywalker
Zouken Matou (Fate) as Snoke
Mr. Chang (Black Lagoon) as Bib Fortuna
Shiho Miyano (Detective Conan) as Enfys Nest
Kurenai Yuhi (Naruto) as Iden Versio
Cornelia li Britannia (Code Geass) as Pre Vizsla
Solomon Muto (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Lor San Tekka
Tessai Tsukabishi (Bleach) as Lobot
Eto (Tokyo Ghoul) as Aurra Sing
Kiyone Kotetsu (Bleach) as L3-37
Yomi Isayama (Ga-Rei: Zero) as Barriss Offee
Hagoromo Otsutsuki (Naruto) as The Father
Seta Sojiro (Rurouni Kenshin) as Dryden Vos
Makoto Waltz Segai (Guilty Crown) as Admiral Motti
Reine Murasame (Date a Live) as Garven Dreis
Rose Thomas (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Dexter Jettster
Kurumi Tokisaki (Date a Live) as Fennec Shand
Sugo "Oberon" Nobuyuki (Sword Art Online) as Nute Gunray
Mavis Vermillion (Fairy Tail) as The Daughter
Wilhelmina Carmel (Shakugan no Shana) as Luminara Unduli
Mifune (Soul Eater) as Embo
Sorahiko Torino/Gran Torino (My Hero Academia) as Jan Dodonna
Hanta Sero (My Hero Academia) as Dak Ralter
Tsumugu Kinagase (Kill la Kill) as Jon "Dutch" Vander
Ai Mikami (The Future Diary) as Oola
Pantherlily (Fairy Tail) as Benthic
Danzo Shimura (Naruto) as General Pryde
Yajirobe (Dragon Ball Z) as Boss Rugor Nass
Sora Takenouchi (Digimon) as Adi Gallia
Hideki Hinata (Angel Beats) as Temmin "Snap" Wexley
Chisaki Hiradaira (A Lull in the Sea) as Dorme
Loly Aivirrne (Bleach) as Xi'an
Racer (Fairy Tail) as Dengar
Rangiku Matsumoto (Bleach) as Val
Goro (Darling in the Franxx) as Shriv Suurgav
Shirley Fenette (Code Geass) as Sabe
Aqua (KonoSuba) as Jar Jar Binks
Gauron (Full Metal Panic) as Mayfeld
Patrick Colasaur (Gundam 00) as Admiral Kendal Ozzel
Chaka (Black Lagoon) as DJ
Kami (Dragon Ball Z) as Tion Medon
Gluttony (Fullmetal Alchemist) as Ponda Baba
Kaede (Inuyasha) as Yaddle
Himawari Uzumaki (Naruto) as Kaydel Connix
Selka Zuberg (Sword Art Online) as Jannah
Doc Q (One Piece) as Doctor Evazan
Keith Sadies (Attack On Titan) as Major Bren Derlin
Setsuna Meioh/Sailor Pluto (Sailor Moon) as Saesee Tiin
Porlyusica (Fairy Tail) as Vice Admiral Holdo
Ronye Arabel (Fairy Tail) as Paige Tico
Rico Brzenska (Attack On Titan) as Ello Asty
Rosalia (Sword Art Online) as Zam Wesell
Tiese Schtrinen (Sword Art Online) as Rose Tico
Ginkotsu (Inuyasha) as Burg
Eve Tearm (Fairy Tail) as Beaumont Kin
Marechiyo Omaeda (Bleach) as Unkar Plutt
Asuma Sarutobi (Naruto) as Del Meeko
Raynare (Highschool DxD) as Sy Snootles
Shikamaru Nara (Naruto) as Jarek Yeager
Ikaruga (Fairy Tail) as Ochi
Lyon Vastia (Fairy Tail) as Baron Papanoida
Fuko Kurasaki (Accel World) as Larma D'Acy
Joey Wheeler (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Kazuda Xiono
Mai Valentine (Yu-Gi-Oh!) as Tamara "Tam" Ryvora
May (Pokemon) as Torra Doza
Hanataro Yamada (Bleach) as Neeku Vozo
Here's a little bonus as well:
Levi (Attack On Titan) as Hunter
Shinichi Kudo (Detective Conan) as Tech
Shino "Sinon" Asada (Sword Art Online) as Crosshair
Kenpachi Zaraki (Bleach) as Wrecker
Plus here's the casting for the new Star Wars story we're getting, The High Republic saga:
Alice Zuberg (Sword Art Online) as Avar Kriss
Kakashi Hatake (Naruto) as Loden Greatstorm
Itachi Uchiha (Naruto) as Stellan Gios
Erza Scarlet (Fairy Tail) as Keeve Trennis
Silica (Sword Art Online) as Vernestra "Vern" Rwoh
Sajin Komamura (Bleach) as Burryaga Agaburry
Fai D. Flourite (Tsubasa Chronicles) as Farzala
Yoruichi Shihoin (Bleach) as Lula Talisola
Izuku "Deku" Midoriya (My Hero Academia) as Imri
Shoto Todiroki (My Hero Academia) as Reath Silas
I Hope you all like the casting I did. If there's characters I missed, feel free to suggest on who should be casted as who. I will only do characters that are from the Disney canon. They can be characters from the movies, TV shows, novels, comic books and video games.
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2020.09.01 05:42 ajdvee 23 [M4F] For you? WHAT IS LIFE?

For me?
"LIFE IS LIKE A GAME"
You should know how to play with it. It doesn't mean that all you need to do is to enjoy and have fun. Let's go deeper hahahaha so eto na nga. Ang buhay ay ISANG laro na walang bawian, walang lipatan pag sawa kana o walang option to quit pag ayaw mo na. May option? Suicide? That's bullshit. Walang resurrection na tulad sa online/offline games na mabubuhay ka ulit to continue your journey. So each and everyone of us should handle this game seriously. "Time is gold" ika nga nila. Just like sa Dota or Mobile Legends mahuli ka lang ng ilang minuto lugi kana sa item. Malingat ka lang ng isang segundo patay kana. Mag lag ka lang in a split second "You have been slain" hahaha. That's why we should value our time.
Since di ako marunong magpahalaga ng oras at ginagawa ko lang laro ang lahat ng bagay mag chat nalang tayo wag na tayo magtrabaho, more chika more fun tayis. Wala po talaga akong kwentang kausap. Hahahahahahaha charot lang.
Eto seryoso, pero I don't know kung sakin lang. Kaya sana mag share din kayo. Having an experience using different of drugs before like shrooms, valium, LSD, meth and until now yung weed. It makes me more matured in a young age. Iba yung pag develope nila sa utak ko pag dating sa realization sa mga bagay bagay, mindset and perspective, I became more responsible and motivated sa sarili. Hays bahala na basta gusto ko lang ng ka chat hahahahahaha pm nyo nalang ako
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2020.08.31 15:42 Silentrift24 Any advice for 20 yr. old college students?

Good PM mga kabayan, grabe tong pandemic na 'to. Wala naman ako sinisisi kasi di naman din talaga ako masipag mag aral o kaya gifted sa kurso kong kinuha. Ang alam ko lang ay "worth it" etong kinukuha kong kurso at may patutunguhan naman kung makapag tapos ako. For context lang, nasa medical field ako - BS Physical Therapy (pero medyo palaboy lang ako nung buong time ko sa Uni. kasi hirap ako maka intindi sa Anatomy, pero enjoy naman :))) mahirap lang siya aralin kasi medyo mahina ako kapag binibigyan na kami ng mga tests eh.)

Anyway, long story short - before mag pandemic bumagsak ako ng dalawang majors (mabibigat na pre-requisites to) kaya na-irreg ako ngayon. 2nd year palang naman ako, kaya hindi pa naman ako nag o-overthink kung saan ako mapupunta. One sem at a time nalang ang iniisip ko para maitaguyod yung pag aaral ko. Nagsusumikap naman ako, pero feeling ko hindi ko parin nabibigay yung best na best ko kasi nga puro pa doubts yung nasa isip ko kung makakatagal pa ba ako o panahon na para mag shift ng kurso.
Mag 20 na ako this year kaya naiisip ko rin kasi yung edad ko. Kinakabahan ako kasi yung mga kapatid ko, hindi sila naabutan ng k-12 at mga nakapag tapos na naman, parehas may work hagang ngayon. Family naman namin hindi naman kinakapos, pero syempre ayoko manatiling palamunin samin o kaya pabigat. Nakakasama lang ng loob kasi sa tingin ko ako nalang yung nagiging pabigat sa pamilya namin, syempre nasa 56-57 na edad ng magulang namin, hindi naman pwede na lagi nalang ako ganito.
Isa din sa mga naging concern ko is yung edad ko bago makatapos, baka mamaya mahirapan ako kung sakali man 25-26 na ako by the time na makatapos ako. Ang pinaka swerte lang na meron ako is financially stable ang magulang ko, kaya wala naman akong inaaalalang gastusin (pero ako mismo mahiyain ako pag dating sa pera, as much as possible hindi na ako namimili ng mga libro sa college dahil meron naman din kami sa library)
Ang hirap lang kasi isipin yung hindi na nga ayos mental health ko ngayon, tapos sasabay pa yung pag iisip na "Shet nahuhuli na ako" kasi saming mag babarkada, ako yung una na-irreg. Medyo masakit, pero supportive naman lahat ng bros ko. Hindi ko lang matanggal sa isip ko na kulelat na naman ako hehehe (tuloy lang ang buhay, feeling ko naman mas masipag pa ako lalo ngayong online semester kumpara sa nung huling semester)
Share naman kayo ng mga success stories niyo dyan hehe, malay niyo balang araw ako pa maging doctor niyo :))) At para naman din sa mga kagaya ko na lumalaban hagang ngayon, congrats sa atin lahat! Panalo parin yung mga maliliit na bagay na natatapos natin <3
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2020.08.27 11:55 roro-xpostbot u/dijrosu: (F30) Ce mai e și viața asta, mai ales a mea?

Nu mi-am făcut calcule pe bune dacă îmi permit un psiholog, dar am recomandat psihologi în ideea că dacă te apuci să dai bani, poate chiar vei deveni motivat să rezolvi anumite lucruri.
Încerc să-mi scriu din când în când, pentru că uit. Chiar am niște scrisori către mine de acum vreo 10 ani în care îmi scriu foarte clar că am să uit la ce mă gândeam atunci (sunt genul ăla de a dracu cu mine; oarecum teribilism… dar aveam dreptate, nu-i pasă nimănui, nici măcar mie; totuși, hai să o privim ca pe o eliberare).
Dacă nu mă înșel, într-un roman de Camus, unul dintre personaje (un prizonier) recunoaște vocea pe care o auzea de câteva zile ca fiind a sa. Michel Vaujour (prizonier pe bune) zicea de gândurile care ricoșează în pereți și apoi îți intră înapoi în cap. Eu am auzit prima oară de la Avril Lavigne că adolescența e o perioadă care trece și nu o să te simți toată viața așa. Când au venit juniorii (ăia mulți din toamnă) în corporația în care lucram, noi le tot ziceam să facă „nil-uri”. În timpul unei întâlniri în care eram doar eu cu juniorii, și-a găsit unul curaj să întrebe ce sunt alea „nil-uri”? Mi se pare că perversitatea vieții e că uităm. Uităm să anunțăm bobocii că o sa fie bine. Vaujour evada... el d-asta e cunoscut, că a tot evadat. Suntem mai prizonieri decât Vaujour pentru că el se considera rebel, nu infractor. Infractor nu îl gâdila că avea așa o reverberație de „instituționalizat”. Oamenii se trezeau din Matrix dacă le dădeau vise frumoase. Mi-a urat cineva de Crăciun/Anul Nou: regrete. Mi s-a părut cea mai frumoasă urare. Am primit-o de la un airbnb-ist, îl anunțam printre altele că următorul an nu o să mai ajungem în acel oraș. Sper că într-o zi vom povesti la un vin (deși i-am cotrobăit prin casă, încă nu ne-am văzut).
Sărac devii prin comparație. Mă deranja că tatăl meu făcea duș la muncă și noi stăteam să ne spălăm în lighean. M-a deranjat testul ală de la Educație tehnologică (?) în care trebuia să scrii denumirile camerelor și una dintre ele era aia în care te speli... mnoh... Nu mori dacă te speli într-un lighean, dar e trist atunci când oamenii din jurul tău nu trebuie să facă asta, că simți că e ceva în neregulă cu tine.
Din certurile părinților, mi-am zis că mai bine mor singură decât să stau să mă cert cu cineva. Nu prea m-am certat, dar nici nu am îmbătrânit în relații. În perioadele de dating, mă ofticau bărbații care fuseseră în relații mai lungi decât ale mele, dar cumva îmi justificam că sigur se certau (până la urmă s-au despărțit, nu?).
M-am plimbat. Maică-mea zice că îmi scot pârleala că ei nu m-au dus nicăieri. Da, îi duc și pe ei în diverse locuri în care am mai fost și mă gândesc că le-ar plăcea (pe taică-miu mai rar că el comentează tot timpul). Da, ca pe copii.
Am ajuns în momentul în care mă gândesc că aș putea avea copii (asupra cărora să am putere de decizie) și ne-am luat pian electric. N-aș vrea să îmi oblig copiii la lecții de pian (online și neplătite). Asta cu pianul mi-a rămas în cap din gimnaziu, cumva o să iasă la suprafață dacă nu o scot eu.
Acum mai mulți ani am învățat că nu toate pisicile sunt la fel (am stat cu 3 pisici în casă, dar fără să am grijă de ele). De anul trecut învăț că nu toți copiii sunt la fel. Anul ăsta ... mă terorizează personalitatea unui câine care a fost călcat de o mașină (și handicapații au personalitate).
Îmi încurc colegii din liceu/facultate. Adică trebuie să stau să îi vizualizez în camere/lângă alte persoane (cine vorbea cu cine și dacă era cu X, atunci sigur era din liceu). În liceu eram încă foarte sensibilă. În facultate m-a abordat o tipă din aceeași serie pe care nu o recunoșteam. Așa mi-am dat seama că nu îmi mai observ mediul cu aceeași atenție și sensibilitate. Tot în facultate am remarcat un coleg care zicea că el știe cum ne cheamă pe toți, dar noi nu știm cum îl cheamă pe el. Nu am fost curioasă dacă chiar știe cum mă cheamă. Nu țin minte dacă știam cum îl cheamă. N-am fost la niciun majorat și nu am avut majorat. Pe prietena mea cea mai bună nu o lăsa maică-sa la chestii și așa am învățat să zic că nu mă lasă mami (dar se întâmpla să cer voie să zic că nu mă lasă... „nu-i așa că.....?”). Am înmagazinat sentimente negative față de prietena mea pentru că am simțit că mă neglijează după ce a intrat într-o relație cu un tip (cu care probabil că deja a împlinit mai mulți ani decât cu mine, dar oare se ceartă? Eu nu știu că eu nu am putut să mă adaptez situației și nu mai păstrăm legătura). Nu am suferit după un băiat/bărbat cum am suferit după prietena mea. Înțelegeam să mor singură, fără bărbat, dar prietenă? De ce nu? În perioada cu reuniunile de liceu, aveam un coleg de muncă cu care ieșeam la țigară și care nu era antisocial (ca restul oamenilor din jurul meu, care nu fuseseră la evenimentele astea). În urma discuțiilor cu el (+ dramele de pe Facebook legate de organizare, care mi s-au părut adorabile) am fost la reuniune, m-am întâlnit cu prietena mea și a fost bine și suficient. Am un om cu care vorbesc când viața îmi pare grea. Eu nu îl ajut cu nimic (adică mi-am impus să știu cât mai puține că altfel sigur îl ajut eu cu ceva). A mers de fiecare dată.
Când am avut o intervenție de urgență și eram suficient de amețită cât să am impresia că aș putea muri, mi-am zis că n-aș vrea să mor economist. În timp mi-am dat seama că nu m-am gândit și eu că aș vrea să termin o carte sau să ajung pe insule (în perioada aia nu prea aveam timp de altceva decât de muncă). Acum lucrez independent. Partenerul meu zice că sunt cea mai echilibrată persoană pe care o cunoaște. Da, sunt mulțumită de viața mea. Nu simt teamă când mă gândesc la timp petrecut singură (am lucruri pe care vreau să le fac) și las unii oameni să mă ajute (e și asta o durere).
Mi-a luat foarte mult timp să îmi dau seama că pot să îmi schimb oricând locul atunci când merg singură la concerte. Nu fi ca mine (cal legat de un scaun de plastic).
tldr: A postat un om de 20 de ani despre viața lui, dar întâi am citit comentariile că nu mi-a convenit să citesc din prima așa mult cât a scris el. Aș fi putut lăsa un comentariu, dar am făcut o postare (destul de lungă). La 17 ani aveam cont pe jurnale.ro 😊
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2020.08.27 01:03 dijrosu (F30) Ce mai e și viața asta, mai ales a mea?

Nu mi-am făcut calcule pe bune dacă îmi permit un psiholog, dar am recomandat psihologi în ideea că dacă te apuci să dai bani, poate chiar vei deveni motivat să rezolvi anumite lucruri.
Încerc să-mi scriu din când în când, pentru că uit. Chiar am niște scrisori către mine de acum vreo 10 ani în care îmi scriu foarte clar că am să uit la ce mă gândeam atunci (sunt genul ăla de a dracu cu mine; oarecum teribilism… dar aveam dreptate, nu-i pasă nimănui, nici măcar mie; totuși, hai să o privim ca pe o eliberare).
Dacă nu mă înșel, într-un roman de Camus, unul dintre personaje (un prizonier) recunoaște vocea pe care o auzea de câteva zile ca fiind a sa. Michel Vaujour (prizonier pe bune) zicea de gândurile care ricoșează în pereți și apoi îți intră înapoi în cap. Eu am auzit prima oară de la Avril Lavigne că adolescența e o perioadă care trece și nu o să te simți toată viața așa. Când au venit juniorii (ăia mulți din toamnă) în corporația în care lucram, noi le tot ziceam să facă „nil-uri”. În timpul unei întâlniri în care eram doar eu cu juniorii, și-a găsit unul curaj să întrebe ce sunt alea „nil-uri”? Mi se pare că perversitatea vieții e că uităm. Uităm să anunțăm bobocii că o sa fie bine. Vaujour evada... el d-asta e cunoscut, că a tot evadat. Suntem mai prizonieri decât Vaujour pentru că el se considera rebel, nu infractor. Infractor nu îl gâdila că avea așa o reverberație de „instituționalizat”.
Oamenii se trezeau din Matrix dacă le dădeau vise frumoase. Mi-a urat cineva de Crăciun/Anul Nou: regrete. Mi s-a părut cea mai frumoasă urare. Am primit-o de la un airbnb-ist, îl anunțam printre altele că următorul an nu o să mai ajungem în acel oraș. Sper că într-o zi vom povesti la un vin (deși i-am cotrobăit prin casă, încă nu ne-am văzut).
Sărac devii prin comparație. Mă deranja că tatăl meu făcea duș la muncă și noi stăteam să ne spălăm în lighean. M-a deranjat testul ală de la Educație tehnologică (?) în care trebuia să scrii denumirile camerelor și una dintre ele era aia în care te speli... mnoh... Nu mori dacă te speli într-un lighean, dar e trist atunci când oamenii din jurul tău nu trebuie să facă asta, că simți că e ceva în neregulă cu tine.
Din certurile părinților, mi-am zis că mai bine mor singură decât să stau să mă cert cu cineva. Nu prea m-am certat, dar nici nu am îmbătrânit în relații. În perioadele de dating, mă ofticau bărbații care fuseseră în relații mai lungi decât ale mele, dar cumva îmi justificam că sigur se certau (până la urmă s-au despărțit, nu?).
M-am plimbat. Maică-mea zice că îmi scot pârleala că ei nu m-au dus nicăieri. Da, îi duc și pe ei în diverse locuri în care am mai fost și mă gândesc că le-ar plăcea (pe taică-miu mai rar că el comentează tot timpul). Da, ca pe copii.
Am ajuns în momentul în care mă gândesc că aș putea avea copii (asupra cărora să am putere de decizie) și ne-am luat pian electric. N-aș vrea să îmi oblig copiii la lecții de pian (online și neplătite). Asta cu pianul mi-a rămas în cap din gimnaziu, cumva o să iasă la suprafață dacă nu o scot eu.
Acum mai mulți ani am învățat că nu toate pisicile sunt la fel (am stat cu 3 pisici în casă, dar fără să am grijă de ele). De anul trecut învăț că nu toți copiii sunt la fel. Anul ăsta ... mă terorizează personalitatea unui câine care a fost călcat de o mașină (și handicapații au personalitate).
Îmi încurc colegii din liceu/facultate. Adică trebuie să stau să îi vizualizez în camere/lângă alte persoane (cine vorbea cu cine și dacă era cu X, atunci sigur era din liceu). În liceu eram încă foarte sensibilă. În facultate m-a abordat o tipă din aceeași serie pe care nu o recunoșteam. Așa mi-am dat seama că nu îmi mai observ mediul cu aceeași atenție și sensibilitate. Tot în facultate am remarcat un coleg care zicea că el știe cum ne cheamă pe toți, dar noi nu știm cum îl cheamă pe el. Nu am fost curioasă dacă chiar știe cum mă cheamă. Nu țin minte dacă știam cum îl cheamă. N-am fost la niciun majorat și nu am avut majorat. Pe prietena mea cea mai bună nu o lăsa maică-sa la chestii și așa am învățat să zic că nu mă lasă mami (dar se întâmpla să cer voie să zic că nu mă lasă... „nu-i așa că.....?”). Am înmagazinat sentimente negative față de prietena mea pentru că am simțit că mă neglijează după ce a intrat într-o relație cu un tip (cu care probabil că deja a împlinit mai mulți ani decât cu mine, dar oare se ceartă? Eu nu știu că eu nu am putut să mă adaptez situației și nu mai păstrăm legătura). Nu am suferit după un băiat/bărbat cum am suferit după prietena mea. Înțelegeam să mor singură, fără bărbat, dar prietenă? De ce nu? În perioada cu reuniunile de liceu, aveam un coleg de muncă cu care ieșeam la țigară și care nu era antisocial (ca restul oamenilor din jurul meu, care nu fuseseră la evenimentele astea). În urma discuțiilor cu el (+ dramele de pe Facebook legate de organizare, care mi s-au părut adorabile) am fost la reuniune, m-am întâlnit cu prietena mea și a fost bine și suficient. Am un om cu care vorbesc când viața îmi pare grea. Eu nu îl ajut cu nimic (adică mi-am impus să știu cât mai puține că altfel sigur îl ajut eu cu ceva). A mers de fiecare dată.
Când am avut o intervenție de urgență și eram suficient de amețită cât să am impresia că aș putea muri, mi-am zis că n-aș vrea să mor economist. În timp mi-am dat seama că nu m-am gândit și eu că aș vrea să termin o carte sau să ajung pe insule (în perioada aia nu prea aveam timp de altceva decât de muncă). Acum lucrez independent. Partenerul meu zice că sunt cea mai echilibrată persoană pe care o cunoaște. Da, sunt mulțumită de viața mea. Nu simt teamă când mă gândesc la timp petrecut singură (am lucruri pe care vreau să le fac) și las unii oameni să mă ajute (e și asta o durere).
Mi-a luat foarte mult timp să îmi dau seama că pot să îmi schimb oricând locul atunci când merg singură la concerte. Nu fi ca mine (cal legat de un scaun de plastic).
tldr: A postat un om de 20 de ani despre viața lui, dar întâi am citit comentariile că nu mi-a convenit să citesc din prima așa mult cât a scris el. Aș fi putut lăsa un comentariu, dar am făcut o postare (destul de lungă). La 17 ani aveam cont pe jurnale.ro 😊
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2020.08.26 19:42 niuz-bot Adio amenzi pentru lipsa RCA, în original, pe suport de hârtie: Polițiștii vor fi obligați să țină cont și de asigurarea RCA în format electronic - [Economie][Asigurari]

Șoferii vor putea prezenta politiștilor, la un eventual control în trafic, "polița de asigurare RCA pe suport hârtie sau în format electronic", potrivit unei modificări adoptate miercuri de ASF la legislația asigurărilor auto. Mai mult, dovada încheierii asigurării RCA o va constitui și informația rezultată din interogarea bazei de date AIDA care conține toate asigurările RCA valabile din țară. Schimbările legislative vor intra în vigoare în câteva zile și vin după ce HotNews.ro a semnalat că Poliția nu pune bază pe polița RCA emisă online, ci solicită șoferilor polița RCA în original, pe suport de hârtie, în caz contrar aceștia riscând amenzi de mii de lei.
Citeste in continuare: https://economie.hotnews.ro/stiri-pensii_private-24252376-amenzi-lipsa-rca-original-suport-hartie-politisti-asigurarea-rca-format-electronic-asf-modificare-legislatie.htm
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2020.08.25 13:50 melanineflowerqueen he said he is too depress because of the corona

hi there (before you read ,keep in mind i'm speak french so i'm still learning english)
OP27 boyfreind 48 (never had kids and never married)
we met before the corona started...
it was pretty nice at the first 3 months but...after the corona he started to be depress since,all the event from france were cancelled and ,france's event are his uncomes.I understood how he felt and gave him space because,i know how it feel like to have sex while depress...it awfull.
His depression routine: getting a bit fat, complaining all the time, don't want to play some games with me,alway talk outloud about thing he is going to do in order to get my attention,get angry when he lose his stuff or brake something or tell me how clumbsy a'm just because i don't remeber putting something somwhere,alway watching the new about the corona (when it going to be over)complaining about the gouvernement ect.
6months has passed and we haven't been intimate at all...he got a little bit chubby because of the lock down but I din't (my body don't absorve enought calories that why ,i alway has some anemia and stay skinny eventhought i don't look like an anorexic girl...he then started to flash his insecurity towards me by trying to controll what i eat but,i'm a stunborn person anyway.( my body din't change at all) his in the other hand did.
So....his warning got back at him and now,he is the one going to the gym after the end of the lockdown.
i tried to be intimate with him but ,he would alway push me away,at this point i gave up cause,it started to get on my nervs specially when we;(in the beginning of our relationship ,was the one who would alway beg to have sex with me ). One day ,he saw me brownsing for a sextoy on a sexshop online and got all offended,asking me why i want to buy a sex toy.i told him that i'm sexually frustrated and don't want to force him to have sex with me cause i would hate the feeling of forcing him or making him feel uncofortable.he tried once to push himself to have sex with me but,i hated it and told him ,i' wasn't intrested in "unwanted sex".so he told me to not buy a sex toy and that he know a freind that can bring some for me, for free.i said ok but,i never got my sex toy and never heard of it ever egain.
I also notice one thing,he told me that he don't like to hod hands outside but mind you,when we first started dating ,whenever i would hold his hand ,he din't mind,sometime he would hold my hands without me asking so,somehow , i felt betrayed but i told myself "some men don't like to show affection so let it go girl".i let it go.
another time ,we went out with his bestfreind eat,i was so jealouse of his bestfreind relationship,she had a boyfreind kissing her holding hands joking around while me...whenever i would try to touch him in a flirty way he would whisper "stop that "...my feelings were hurt but i kept smiling since we where with freinds (egain sorry for my bad english). we finish eating,i go out first ,he come and try to hug him and i could sens he din't want to hug me back so,i let it go.
back in the house i talked about it with him he just said: 'im sorry i'm just depress and not on the mood ,i don't want to talk about it.
it hurted me egain because...i love to communicate...so i let it go eventhought i wanted to cry ,i kept it inside me while my heart was screaming...
another day out with the freind,his freinds invited us,we had agreat time ,laughing and drinking ,when the night was over ,we picked a cab and inside the cab,he was holding my hands,smiling...i felt like back in the days when we first met ...i was hopping wi will get intimate but...when we went home,we went to the bed. watch tv (because the sound of tv make him sleep) we hold hand and cuddles...eventhought we din't have sex ,i was happy we could culddle...
the next day...well things went back to it egain...no sex...just some kisses when we say,good morning,bye or dinner is ready...
mind you we aren't married yet and i'm starting to reconsider marrying him and i even think he will never propose to me...i'm even starting to think that maybe that why he never got married...
now i'm wondering if i should end it or if i'm being too need or too much of a diva..i asked him if he stll love me ,he said yes and that i ask weird questions.
honestly i don't feel...the love ...just being there as a opposite gender who live there as a roomy eventhought i don't pay anythign there...i tried to make him relax but all i got was "you can"t understand how hard life is ,i have a big compagny" .eventhought i don't know how it feels like to have a big compagny,i know how it feels like to feel worthless and angry about not doing better...his freinds told me to be patient and just be there emotionnaly for him and that what i'm foing...i now just sit next to him and hug him without a word and go back to my our room with my computer and only leave the room to cook for both of us and clean the apartement when it get dirty and go grocery-shopping with him when we run out of food and sometime go out only if his freind invite us or when i wanna see my freidn and family...i feel like just g=being a roomy and it sucks....
update:
i talked with him about his issue when he came back from work and he was honest that he is very stressed out and can't be very intimate with me and ofcorse...change subjects and flip it back at me by saying: we guys has this issue when we are stressed ,unlike you girl,you girl fake it when we do it with you and i told him that i never fake it since he clearly know that ,when i don't want to do it i'm pretty vocal about it.he then give me the "come on,you girl don't want to do it but atleast you can get penetrate even when you don't want to do it.
I was chocked by what he just said ,like i was just some damn hole...he clearly dismissed what i was trying to talk about and try to make it about me(or girls in generals) insunuating that ,everytime we do it ,i fake it, just to make himself feel better instead of just talking things out and make it work,i'm trying my best to not cry right now,i guess i clearly need to let it go and make an exit...wow...i thought i never was going to be shiftblamed in my relationship with him as my current boyfreind but...that just how thing are going to be and i just need to leave after this corona calm down,i just hope there won't be another lockdown because i clearly need to go back to school or ,i'm going to go crazy...not only i'm intimaly frustrated but heartbroken...i couldn' even talk more because i clearly sensed that he was going to yell because of how he feel unconfortable...

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2020.08.23 20:59 fhmomscommunity Apektado rin ba ng COVID-19 Pandemic ang trabaho mo?

Apektado rin ba ng COVID-19 Pandemic ang trabaho mo?
Gusto ko lang malaman ano ng status niyo ngayon pagdating sa trabaho. Ilan sa mga kakilala ko, nawalan sila at ang asawa nila ng trabaho pagkatapos magsara ng kumpanya. May mga nabawasan ang oras ng pagpasok, dahilan para mas lumiit ang kita. May mga required pa ding pumasok araw-araw, meron namang ilan na may ilang araw na kailangang pumasok, tapos work from home na.
Ang swerte ng mga empleyadong pinagwork from home na ng mga kumpanya nila na may support pagdating sa computer at internet. Meron ba ditong hindi provided ng local company nila ang gamit?
Sa mga dating work from home nang freelancers, wala masyadong adjustment, pero marami pa din talaga ang naapektuhan lalo na sa mga clients nila na kinailangan ring magsara dahil sa pandemic. Noong una, wala silang magawa kasi ganun talaga, nakahanap rin ng panibagong client. 'Yung mga binawasan ng oras, naghanap nalang ng additional na online job.
Akala na'tin dati dahil marami ang nagsarang negosyo, wala na ding maghahire. Pero maraming traditional business owners ang buhay pa din ngayon at nakapagtransition na online . Marami rin ang nagsisimula ng business online, kaya may demand talaga.
Kaso based sa article na ito, 7.3 Million ang walang trabaho. Sigurado mas marami pa kasi 'yung mga dating may trabaho, dumagdag na sa bilang ng dating jobless dagdag mo pa mga fresh graduates.
Maraming mga empleyado ng local companies ang naghahanap ngayon ng online job, pero nahihirapan mag-apply kahit na may skills sila. Paano nalang kaya yung mga kababayan na'tin na hindi pa handa sa online job na setup. Ano kayang job opportunity ang nakalaan para sakanila?
Sa mga skilled at kahit papaano ay maalam sa computer pero sinusubukan palang maghanap, kamusta na? Saang job matching platform kayo naghahanap? Meron ba ditong nagsimula nalang ng sarili nilang negosyo kasi wala talagang makuhang trabaho?

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2020.08.23 02:00 boewhiskey The Forest Gate (Part 1)

Wilson Rawls wrote, “It’s strange indeed how memories can lie dormant in a man’s mind for so many years. Yet those memories can be awakened and brought forth fresh and new, just by something you’ve seen, or something you’ve heard, or the sight of a familiar face.” Those words seem to ring true in my mind lately. How many things do you have in your daily life that you don’t notice because it’s become background noise? It just blends into the scenery and you know it’s there but you don’t spend any time thinking of it. And then, it’s as if given so much time being ignored, the memory needs to call out to you and remind you of its existence and the item becomes clearer than it was, whether you want to remember or not. Such a thing happened to me recently with a framed photo that caught my eye from its place on my desk and I now feel compelled to get this memory out in hopes it will alleviate the harsh pain I’ve held onto for so long. I don’t know if it’ll work that way, but I have to try something to get rid of this, to get it out of my head, to let at least a piece of it go. I need relief.
I’m not going to pretend that I have plenty of memories that include my older brother and sister smiling or happy. I simply can’t. I’ve seen photos, sure, but I was young when they went away and I don’t have any strong memories, save one which is still only a snapshot of time and a bit shaky. That single memory is one I’ve done my best to hold on tight to, and I keep a picture from that day to remind me. The photo is a simple one of a set of fourteen-year-old twins holding up their little sister on their shoulders, which we pressed together to cradle the seven-year-old version of myself. We were all soaked after having a water fight with some of the neighborhood kids. I can’t remember who all played or how a winner was determined, and looking back now, I don’t think there was one, but back then, Rebecca and Travis lifted me up and declared that I won the whole battle for us while my mother snapped the picture. That day was only weeks before our family would be altered and scarred forever. Twenty-two years later and I still keep that photo in a frame on my desk. It’s behind some others because it’s difficult for me to look at but I also can’t bring myself to tuck it away in some box in a closet, not to be included in my life.
To address the basics, my sister spent over a decade in a mental institution after, as my parents always put it, “a traumatic and horrific event that broke her mind and spirit and took our Travis away from us.” I wouldn’t understand much of what was happening back then until I was older. In a nutshell, my brother, sister, and two best friends went exploring in a forest while on a trip. Becca was the only one who survived whatever happened to them. Years later, as a curious teenager, I looked for any information I could find publicly but was met with a big fat nothing. This only served to piss me off and demand answers from my parents. They refused, only saying that forests are dangerous places. They wouldn’t even tell me where this particular forest was. After any persistent inquiry I made to them, my mother would sequester herself in their bedroom for days. I could hear her bouts of sobbing sometimes and her whispering to herself. I never could tell what she was saying, though. My father would be the opposite; he would put on an attitude that was so chipper it was obviously fake, and offer to take me shopping or do some sort of activity that focused on me. To this day, I still think of him doing this whenever I hear the phrase “fake it ‘til you make it.”
They were good parents, though, despite all of this. I didn’t know at the time, I was too young to understand it, but they held themselves together as best as they could while trying to keep the three of us a family. I also didn’t know until I was older that they visited my sister often once she was allowed to see people. She was the reason we moved to another state. I knew that from day one, as they openly told me that they wanted to get her the best help possible and still be close to her. Once I turned seventeen, they let me join them on visits but I only went once. When I turned eighteen, they told me that I could visit her on my own but I never could bring myself to do so. It was difficult seeing her there and trying to think of things to talk about with this person that I knew was my sister but felt like a stranger. I had spent more than half of my life at that point as an only child. My siblings were ghosts and I had learned to accept that. But physically, I was the only one around. This made it hard to make any connection with her. I wish I had tried.
A few months before I turned nineteen, Becca was released into the care of my parents. She had spent twelve years there. I was at college by then but talked to her on the phone a couple of times and planned to spend most of my summer there. As you can imagine, it didn’t go as planned. Two months after going home, Becca left in the middle of the night and showed up at my door around seven in the morning. I vaguely recognized the person standing there when I opened the door, groggy and still half asleep. From my drowsy perspective, she looked like a lost young woman, tired and a bit disheveled, as if she was running from something or someone.
“Abby?” She asked, her voice seemed to sit on the edge of tears.
“Yes?” I said.
Her response came as a sigh of relief and arms thrown around my neck in a tight hug.
“Uh,” I managed to choke out. She pulled back and held me at arms’ length, her hands gripping my shoulders as she looked me up and down.
“I missed out on you growing up,” she said.
I stared at her for a second as recognition sparked in my mind and I asked, “Rebecca?”
She nodded briefly and smiled. I motioned for her to come inside and asked if she wanted any coffee. I could go over all of the small specifics of morning coffee and asking why she was there, if our parents knew where she was (they didn’t, but she had left a note), our agreement for her to hand out while I attended two finals that day, or the plans for us to order a pizza and talk that night. I could go into detail of how she seemed haunted or like she wanted to say something but was holding back. I could explain all of those tiny moments but honestly, those aren’t that important.
That evening, after we scarfed down a large pepperoni pizza, I asked her again why she had come, not buying her excuse from earlier that she needed some air. She was quiet for a moment and looked at her hands in her lap.
“I have to go,” she said in a small voice.
“Go? It’s late. You can stay here and even hang out for a few days and ride back with me to mom and dad’s,” I said.
“No,” she said. She looked up at me and shook her head softly, “I have to go back there.”
“Back where?” I asked.
“To the forest,” she said. Her eyes pleaded for me to understand or at the least, accept what she was saying.
“You mean that place where everything happened? Why?” I asked, becoming concerned. My mind started swimming with thoughts and memories. I still had no idea what had actually happened and as much as I wanted to sate my curiosity, I wasn’t about to ask my sister, the one who had been so broken after the event that she was shut away for my entire life. I didn’t think she would want to talk about it or even if she did, I didn’t think she really could without some sort of setback.
“I don’t know how to explain it. I can’t voice it but I want you to read something after I leave tomorrow,” she said.
“When will you be back?” I asked.
“I don’t know,” she said.
I tried to get her to explain further but once I realized she wouldn’t, or possibly couldn’t, I suggested that she spend another couple of days with me and for now, to enjoy the time we had together by watching a movie. Both of us participated in willfully pretending there wasn’t anything hanging over our heads as we spent the rest of the evening hanging out. We spent some more time talking after the movies and before bed. Well, I did most of the talking. Becca wanted to know everything about my life and I tried to tell her as much as I could think of. It was a strange longing I felt then and still feel sometimes: missing a sister I had never had and wanting her to know everything and be a part of my life as if she had been there all along.
The next morning, I found an empty couch, a folded blanket, a pillow, and a notebook, but no Rebecca. There was no tearful goodbye, no long hug, no promise to stay in touch. Becca had left before I had woken up. Initially, I thought she hadn’t left a note but once I read through the little book she left, I found one scrawled in there, addressed to me. There wasn’t much in the notebook and it looked like a continuation from another book, almost the ending of a story. It did shed some light on what happened twelve years before, but at the time, I thought it was more of an indication of her broken mind while she was in the mental hospital. Later, my mind would change.
There was no date on the entry but it read as such:
There it was. Finally, I had made it. I found the gate. I could leave the forest. I pushed my body up, dried leaves and twigs crunching and poking into the palms of my aching hands. I couldn’t give in to the pain of my body, though. I had to get up. I reached for the lowest branch of a nearby tree and grabbed for it. My hand met something slick and my grasp didn’t take, making me lose balance. I collided with the ground once more. The side of my face that met with the earth instantly felt as if it was on fire. I gave it no more than two seconds before I took as deep of a breath as I could and pushed myself up again. I couldn’t put much weight on my injured knee so I did my best to balance on the other one. Once on my hands and one good knee, I began to pant, struggling to breathe.
Just get up, dammit.
“You will never be forgiven,” that broken multitude of voices from the trees echoed around me.
“I don’t care,” I yelled back. “I just want to live.”
I was greeted with silence, the only sound coming from my labored breathing.
Get. Up.
I bit my lip and shifted my weight, preparing to move from my knee to my foot. It would have been so much easier if I had two working legs but the simple fact was that I didn’t. I couldn’t let that stop me. The gate was right there, a mere twenty or so feet away. I could walk that, easily. I had to. I gave one more shove against the ground and stifled a cry as I felt something poke into the heel of my hand. I managed to get to my feet and turned my hand over to look at it and see if anything was sticking out of my hand. There was a thick thorn that I quickly yanked out of my flesh and dropped to the ground, not letting myself think about it too much. The rest of my hand was covered in dirt and bits of dead leaves and a dark liquid that I think was my blood or maybe whatever had been on the branch I tried to grab. I wiped it on my jeans and clenched my teeth. I couldn’t worry about it yet.
I took one limping step.
“Come back,” I heard Angie’s voice call out from behind me. She sounded like she was crying. My eyes shut tight and I fought the urge to turn around.
“No,” I whispered to the air.
“Becca, don’t leave me,” Angie pleaded.
Don’t turn around. It’s not her. Keep moving forward. You’re almost there.
My knee tried to buckle as I took a second step. My arms shot out to the sides for balance, the bloodied hand slamming into the trunk of a tree. I winced but took a third step. And then a fourth. And a fifth. Instead of looking over my shoulder, I chewed on my lip and hummed a melody to myself, one that I had forgotten the name of. It was slow, steady, and broken coming from my throat. But it helped. It gave me something to focus on other than my best friend’s calls to me.
After what felt like the longest few moments of my life, I arrived at the gate and fell to my knees before it. The jarring pain to my injured knee bested only by my relief. I reached out with both of my hands and felt the cool metal against my hot, sweaty, and dirty palms.
You made it.
The air already felt a little easier on my lungs and I smiled, no longer humming. Angie still yelled for me. She still cried, begged, and pleaded. But it wasn’t her and I couldn’t go back. I couldn’t stay like she wanted me to. Like it wanted me.
“I’m sorry,” I said through tears as I leaned my head against the bars of the gate. “I’m so sorry.”
There was a scream that broke through the trees and hurt my head. I groaned and grabbed my ears, trying to muffle the sound. It only lasted a few seconds but echoed in my mind. When I let go of my head, I wasn’t sure if I was imagining the warm feeling dripping out of my left ear or if my eardrum had ruptured. It didn’t matter right now. I still had to get through the gate.
I used my remaining strength to stand back up and lift the latch that held it shut. The metal creaked but swung open, away from me, with a gentle push, coming to a stop against a pile of leaves and soil. I stumbled through the opening and took a deep breath of air that didn’t feel heavy or difficult. Once more, I collapsed to the ground, this time more careful not to fall with any weight on the bad knee. I rolled over and sat down, then laid on my back and closed my eyes, savoring the clean air filling my lungs. I had made it. I was out. I could finally breathe.
I’m not sure how long that lasted but I felt safe now that I was on the other side of the gate. I was safe.
“Hey, silly, whatcha doing on the ground? Did you fall again?” I heard Angie say from above me. My heart stopped.
No…
I opened my eyes. There she was, unharmed, alive, standing above me with that damned mischievous smile.
“Come on! We aren’t even that far from the gate. The guys are waiting for us but they aren’t going to wait long and we have to find something to prove we went deeper than anyone else,” she said and gently kicked my foot.
“What?” I heard myself say.
“It isn’t enough to just go through. It’s not that creepy, is it? I thought you were the tougher twin!” Angie said, repeating the exact words she had spoken before. I felt like I was experiencing deja vu. I pushed myself up onto my elbows and looked at her.
“Angie?” I asked.
“Yeah, Becks?” she said with an inquisitive smile. I stared at her in disbelief and glanced past her to see Travis and John inspecting some of the lower branches of a tree. Seconds ticked by that felt like minutes. I finally broke the gaze and looked at her outstretched hand, slowly placing mine in it. As I stood, I paid attention to my leg. My jeans were torn and dirty and when I tried to bend my knee or put weight on it as I stood, I was met with sharp pain. I didn’t understand. I looked back at Angie and saw her face grow dark. Her smile twisted into something sinister. The air pressed down onto me again and my heart pounded against my ribcage. I shook my head then looked around frantically.
My eyes found the gate again. There it was, a mere twenty or so feet away. I could walk that, easily. It was opened outward, stopped against a pile of leaves and soil. The metal creaked but moved smoothly. With a resounding clang, the gate swung shut.
After that, there was a single entry after a blank page that reads: “They’re still there. I’m still there. I never left. I’m still in the forest. I have to go back. I have to find them. Oh, god, I’m still there.”
Two more blank pages separated this from the note she had left me. The note addressed to me read as such:
Abby,
There are things in this world that are not spoken of or understood. I hope you can try to at least understand why I have to go back. I lost our brother that day, along with Angie and John. Their bodies were never found and I dream of Travis every night. I have to know why. I have to find him. I have to bring him home. Or I have to die trying. Please forgive me and please help Mom and Dad move on. If I see you again, I hope things will be better. I don’t expect that whatever is out there will let me leave a second time. Please understand why I have to do this and why I am so very sorry and will be for the rest of my days, no matter how few they might be.
I especially want to apologize that I had to take your car. I don’t have enough money to find a bus that far and I’m begging you to not hate me for it. I will leave directions to where you can find it, keys inside.
You sister always,
Becca
I didn’t know what to think or how to feel when I read the short note. I wasn’t even initially pissed that she said she had taken my car. I felt a sadness permeate deep in my heart at the thought of what my sister could be feeling but even more than that, I felt shocked and oddly unnerved. I told myself over and over that she had been through something horrific and it had broken her mind, that what she described couldn’t be real. I told myself it was just the way her brain was trying to cope with what had actually happened. I couldn’t shake the feeling, though, that there was something more. It made me wish I had more details about what had happened and could talk to her more. Aside from her decision to go back to that forest in my car, she had seemed pretty normal when she was here. Could they possibly have let her out when she wasn’t ready? Could all that time in the institution not have been enough for her to be back in the real world?
I purposefully left out the directions she gave so no one else will go searching for the area. Without giving too much away, I will say that it was more than one state over and Becca indicated that it would be left at a specific motel. How close this was to her final destination, I wasn’t sure, but I knew it would have to be close enough for her to manage on foot. I made arrangements with a friend of mine, Ben, to catch a ride on his way home for the summer, which was thankfully in that same general direction. He seemed excited about the prospect of a road trip. I’ll spare you the details of planning and including our friend Vanessa. If not for the circumstances surrounding the journey, I would have been more excited. As it was, I just hoped that my car would be there in one piece, even after almost a week of being left at the motel.
“So your sister is crazy?” Ben asked as the last bits of the city began to fade around us into the background, days later.
“Benjamin!” Vanessa chided and slapped his shoulder from her spot in the back seat.
“Ow! What?” He said, glancing back at her. I sighed and turned my head to look at him.
“She was in a mental institution, yes,” I said.
“For what?” Ben asked.
“Ben!” Vanessa repeated.
“It’s okay, Ness. I figured this would come up and it’s not like it’s really difficult for me to talk about. I just usually don’t because it’s an awkward subject and people react weird,” I said to her, glancing over my shoulder.
“He still doesn’t need to be so rude about it,” she said. She plopped back in her seat and briefly scowled at him.
“Sorry, Ness,” Ben said, a sheepish smile on his face.
“So you want to know the sordid history of my family?” I asked.
“Sure, if you want,” he said. This time I looked directly at Vanessa for her answer. She shrugged and gave me a sympathetic look. The most anyone knew about my past, excluding family members, was that there was something that kept me from talking about my history and family much at all. It wasn’t that I specifically kept it a secret or anything, I just hated the pity that I was met with when I explained even just what I knew. The few times I had told anyone while growing up, it was as if all of a sudden, eggshells appeared around me that everyone felt the need to be careful around. They stopped treated me the same and it was frustrating and made me feel lonely.
“Well, I had an older brother and sister. They were twins and seven years older than me. When they were fourteen and I was seven, they went on a trip with their two best friends and one of their families. I think it was Angie’s family. Travis and Becca, my brother and sister, and these two friends, Angie and John, went into some forest. All I know about what happened is that my sister was the only one who was found. The other three were never found but presumed dead. I never got any details other than what my sister wrote in this journal thing she left the other day but that’s only a little bit of it and had to be from her imagination. After it all happened, my sister was institutionalized and we moved. I pretty much grew up an only child after that. Becca was just released a couple of months ago,” I explained.
“Wait, she was in there since she was fourteen? How long was that?” Ben asked.
“Twelve years. It was pretty traumatic for her and from bits and pieces of conversations I heard from my parents, whenever she seemed to be getting better, she’d have another breakdown. That was, of course, until she was finally let out,” I said.
“That’s horrible,” Vanessa said. I felt her hand reach out and squeeze my arm gently.
I shrugged, “I was young enough that it honestly didn’t affect me too much. I mean, it was weird, of course, and I had to go to therapy for a while, but kids can bounce back easier than adults.”
“Shit, dude. And as soon as she got out, she stole your car?” Ben asked.
I couldn’t help but let out a brief and awkward chuckle, “She was with our parents for two months but then she showed up at my door randomly, unexpected. She was gone the next morning, with my car, and just this notebook that had almost nothing in it except a small piece of the puzzle from her messed up mind and a note as to where I could find the car.”
“Did she say where she was trying to go?” Vanessa asked.
“Kind of. She said she had to go back and from the journal entry before the note, I’m pretty sure she’s talking about the forest where everything happened,” I said.
“Why the hell would she go back there?” Ben asked.
“I don’t know. From what she wrote, she seems…” I searched my mind for the best word to describe it, “Haunted, I guess.”
“Did she write about the forest itself or anything?” Vanessa asked.
“She wrote about a gate in the forest. And it seems like they had heard about it before. Here, let me just read it to you,” I said. I pulled the journal from my backpack that I had stored in the floorboard of the car, next to my feet. I opened it and proceeded to read the entry to them. They both sat in silence for a moment after I concluded reciting what my sister had written.
“Do you think she could have been telling the truth?” Ben finally asked.
“Huh?” I responded.
“I mean, like… there’s tons out there that we don’t know about. Mysteries and whatnot. Do you think what she wrote could have been real?” He said.
“I think…” I trailed off. I hadn’t fully let myself consider that as an option. I could have been called a skeptic beforehand but for some reason, having that question posed to me from an outside source made me seriously consider the existence of something sinister or supernatural in the world, something I had never taken the time to truly think about.
“You really think something like that is possible?” Vanessa asked from the back seat once I didn’t answer.
Ben shrugged, “Maybe. I mean, I hate to get all heavy here and shit, ut how many things have you seen or heard about that just can’t be explained logically? I haven’t seen any ghosts or anything like that, but I guess I’ve always wondered if they could be out there. There were a few haunted spots in my hometown but I never had any solid proof that they had ghosts. I never had any that there weren’t ghosts, though, either. So the option is still open, isn’t it? Think of all the stories and myths that were in the world since the beginning of time. What if some things are explainable and some things simply aren’t, at least not as we know it?”
“Your nerd is showing through,” Nessa said.
“Whether or not ghosts are real or there’s a killer forest out there, something fucked up and creepy happened out there. That’s as much as I can say I believe right now. I don’t know what happened but three out of four people died or disappeared. Maybe it was a bear or wolf or something, who knows, but something broke Becca’s mind,” I said.
“Should we… should we check it out while we’re there?” Ben asked, apprehensively.
“Are you out of your damn mind?” Vanessa squealed.
“What? I mean, if her sister is in some woods, wouldn’t it be the right thing to try and find her and bring her home and get her help? And if we happen to see something spooky, then we’ll have a story to tell, right?” He said.
“There is potentially something that killed children in that forest and you want to go looking for it? Vanessa said.
“We’d be looking for Becca, not the killer beast or whatever,” Ben said. I felt him glance over at me.
“That would probably be a job for someone like the police or search and rescue, not three college kids who don’t know the first thing about the wilderness,” she said.
“Hey, I was a Boy scout for a couple of years,” he answered.
“Do you even know how to start a fire, Boy Scout?” She shot back.
Ben didn’t answer and after a few seconds of no response, Vanessa made an ‘mhm’ noise, as if making sure he knew her point was made.
We drove along in silence for about ten minutes. I stared out of the passenger window, a jumble of thoughts and questions running through my mind. Finally, I broke the silence.
“Let’s do it,” I said.
“Do… what?” Vanessa asked.
“Let’s see if we can find this forest and gate or whatever. Let’s try to find Becca,” I said.
Ben smiled wide, excited at the prospect of a spooky adventure and probably at the idea of his being some sort of hero.
“Really?” Vanessa asked.
“Yes, really,” I said in response. I heard her sigh deeply.
“Okay, but if I die, I’m haunting both of you,” she said.
“Operation Rescue Becca is a go!” Ben said, thrusting a fist in the air. I rolled my eyes and let out a soft laugh. If I was going to explore any creepy woods in search of my sister, I couldn’t think of anyone who would entertain me as much to go with, that was for sure.
The rest of the journey there was uneventful and not worth noting. We followed the information that Becca had left, plus directions Ben had looked up online, and we were led to a motel about ten miles outside of a small town. It was hard to believe that this motel was still in business. It wasn’t that it looked particularly run-down or anything; it was just that it was in such an odd and empty location, the only people who would likely stop and stay here were those on a long trip and found themselves in need of somewhere to catch some sleep late at night before hitting the road again. The elderly man greeted us warmly and I asked him about getting a couple of rooms for the night. As he began to pull the keys from hooks behind the counter, I then proceeded to ask him about Becca and my car, as we had not seen in when we pulled into the lot.
“Oh, you’re the sister,” he said with a nod. “That sweet girl asked if I would look after your car until you got here. I told her it was no problem. I had her park in the back so it was safe. I have the keys right here, too. Can you believe she was just going to leave them in an unlocked car?”
“Is there a lot of theft or something around here?” Ben chimed in.
“Oh, no, no, but you can never be entirely sure. I’ve made it this far in life being cautious,” the man smiled and handed me my car keys and keys to both of the rooms. He looked us over, thoughtfully, for a few seconds then added, “Will you be staying long, and will she be returning here to meet you?”
I shook my head, “We should only be here a couple of nights and no, she doesn’t know we’re going to stay for a bit.”
“No bother. A surprise for her, then?” His demeanor and tone were nothing short of welcoming and friendly and even grandfatherly, but I still felt like we shouldn’t give too much away. So when Ben opened his mouth to respond, I grabbed him just above his elbow and cut him off.
“Exactly,” I answered with a beaming smile, hoping he couldn’t see just how fake it was.
“How sweet. Well, you enjoy your stay and if you need anything at all, you just let Mr. Whickers know,” he said, pointing a thumb to himself jovially.
We found our rooms about halfway down the length of the building and took some of our necessities inside. As Vanessa and I were setting down our bags, Ben walked over from his room with two full bags of snacks we had picked up on the road. Vanessa was starving and started digging in immediately but I wanted to check out my car before eating. So while Nessa picked through the plethora of junk food, Ben and I walked around the building and found my car sitting in a small employee. I unlocked it and opened the driver’s door. Ben walked around, doing a cursory inspection of the vehicle. I was sitting in the seat, the door still open, looking for any clues or anything out of place inside when he opened the passenger side and got in.
“Doesn’t look like anything is wrong. All of your tires are still here, so I guess that’s a good sign,” he said.
I shot him a sarcastic smirk and moved my hand to slide the key into the ignition. As I turned the key to start the engine, my knuckles brushed against something. I looked down and found a small, folded piece of paper tucked in the seam of the dashboard. I carefully pulled it out and set it in my lap, opting to move the car to the front of the building before looking at it. Ben and I shared a look of curiosity and I shrugged before shifting the car into reverse and driving it to where our rooms where.
When we entered the room, we found that Vanessa had changed from rifling through the bags to having the contents dumped out on the bed all around her. Suddenly hungry, I tucked the piece of paper in my pocket as we joined her and I focused on pigging out for the moment.
“Hey, what was that paper?” Ben asked once we had satisfied ourselves. I leaned back and slid my fingers in my pocket to pull out the folded slip of paper.
It was folded over twice and when I unfolded it, I immediately saw that it had a header with the name of the motel we were at.
“Well, it’s from here. She must have written it when she dropped off the car,” I said. Ben propped himself on his elbows and gave me his full attention. I scanned the page with my eyes, not sure of what I was reading.
“And?” Ben prompted.
“Oh, sorry, I just… It says ‘The Forest Gate waits for you, find it if you dare. The Forest Gate is where you will find them if you care’,” I read aloud. There was also one final sentence included at the very bottom of the page, which I paused at and then read. “Almost 15 miles, there is a broken tree.”
“The hell?” Ben asked.
“Yeah, that’s not the weirdest part. This isn’t her handwriting,” I said, leaning forward to hand him the note.
“Are you sure?” He asked, taking it.
I shrugged, “The little rhyme isn’t, at least. It doesn’t look anything like the writing in the notebook. It looks kind of childish.”
He studied the paper, his brows furrowed, for a couple of minutes before looking back up at me with a confused look on his face. Vanessa leaned over and looked at it over his shoulder.
“Isn’t this forest gate thing what she talked about in her journal?” Vanessa asked. I nodded without a word.
“Creepy. Where’d it come from?” She inquired.
“It was left in my car, tucked into the dashboard,” I said.
She visibly shuddered and I looked at Ben, who had been oddly quiet.
He shrugged, “It’s weird, definitely, but it gives us a sort of starting point, I guess. It’s late, though, I’m gonna go crash.”
“Now that sounds like a brilliant idea,” Vanessa agreed.
“Just don’t wake me up too early when you can’t sleep and are itching to go find some scary trees,” I said to Ben. He gave me a wink as he stood up. He bid us a good night and went to his room.
Vanessa and I chatted a little while we got ready for bed but I was only half into it, as my mind swarmed with what was in that odd little note. I know usually in these situations, I should say something about that night being full of fitful and restless sleep with weird dreams or nightmares and worry. I simply can’t, though. I was tired after the trip and fell asleep quickly. I had one strange dream that left me feeling like something was off but I forgot what was in the dream as soon as I woke up from it. Afterward, I rolled over and went right back to sleep.
The next morning, we realized we had to figure out just where this forest was supposed to be. As I took a shower and Ben got his car ready, Vanessa went to the front desk to see if she could find any information to help our quest. When she came back, she reported to us that there were three forests in the general area that Mr. Whickers told her about. Two of them could be found by first traveling north and then choosing the correct road. The third was to the west of us.
“We’re going to one of the northern ones. When we have to choose the road, we’re going right and heading northeast,” she announced.
“He knew the forest you were talking about?” I asked.
“No,” she shook her head, “but he mentioned how the one to the west is one commonly traveled to by tourists so that one doesn’t seem likely. And he kept talking about how the other one to the north was beautiful and a great spot to visit. When I asked him about the one to the northeast, he tried not to talk about it. That makes me think it’s the one we want.”
“Let’s do this, then,” Ben said. We piled into his car and down the road we went, heading north. The further we traveled, the more nervous I felt myself getting. Ben and Vanessa chatted off and on about who knows what. I couldn’t bring myself to completely pay attention to what they were saying.
Before I knew it, Ben was slowing the car down and I came back to my senses after zoning out through the window for almost the entire way. I started looking around, curious as to why he had chosen this specific road to turn onto.
“Is that it?” He asked, pointing to something off to the side of the road to the left.
Vanessa leaned forward, bracing herself against both the front seats and peering around Ben to see where he was pointing. I looked as well and sure enough, it was what could be best described as a broken tree. It looked almost like two different trees in one. It was old, with gnarls and knots in the wood, and could have been struck by lightning at some point. That was the theory I had in my mind as to why the tree was split down the middle. Half of it looked dead or almost dead, covered in dark, peeling bark, with bare limbs that sagged and roots that jutted out of the ground. It looked like it was bending down and raising to curl in on itself, away from the healthy half. The living side still flourished with bright green leaves and lighter, stronger bark. The tree itself sat alone next to the entrance to a side road but in the distance behind it, the trees became dense.
“Well, it’s definitely a broken tree,” Nessa said. I shrugged without a word.
Ben turned onto the road and we found ourselves coming down a slight hill, revealing the forest even more and a small sign that labeled the forest and indicated a nearby campground. The sign looked old and I had the thought that no one, aside from Rebecca, had laid eyes on that sign in who knows how long. Despite the bright sun that day, the further into the trees, it appeared the light diminished quite a bit. It was ominous and only added to my buzzing nerves.
Ben drove the car as far into the trees as it would go, stopping at a small clearing that dead-ended with the forest. After he shut off the engine, he looked at me.
“So, what now?” He asked me.
“Why are you asking me?” I responded.
“Well, Operation Rescue Becca is all about your sister, so you’re in charge,” he said.
“That means I’m supposed to know what to do?” I asked. He shrugged.
“It looks like there’s a path over there,” Vanessa said, pointing to a thin spot in the trees.
We got out of the car and began down the path. It was well-tread and led us to another clearing. There was a wooden table, the type with benches attached on each side. It was clearly old and I wondered how long it might have been there. I walked to it and looked at the markings carved into the top of it. There were crude words, initials, and a single word of ‘don’t’ in large letters. Vanessa joined me in looking at the table for a while.
“Hey, guys, I think it’s this way,” Ben’s voice cut into my thoughts. He was standing at the edge of the clearing, opposite the table. Vanessa and I walked over to where he stood and looked into the trees.
“How do you know?” Vanessa asked.
“Well, it’s not a trail specifically but it looks… dead,” Ben said. We looked at the ground and saw a thin path of dirt and brown grass. We all shared a look and I realized that they might also share some of my fear and concern. It was different when we had decided while we were on the road, but now, being here amongst the trees that had claimed the life of my brother, the sanity of my sister, and two of their friends, it felt suddenly and painfully real. Even more than that, it felt dangerous. No matter what happened those years ago, whether supernatural or not, there was something in these unknown woods and we weren’t prepared.
It took less time than I expected for us to follow the path and come to a gate. The infamous Forest Gate. It wasn’t anything spectacular to look at but gave off an unnerving vibe. It was a simple thing, made of plain metal, stretching across the makeshift path in a section that widened a little. It looked as if the gate itself had been made to fit the space between the trees.
We approached the metal anomaly and as I studied it, I saw that there was a bar on the inside of it, as if to keep things or people like us from going through.
“Not much good that would do, huh?” Ben said, wiggling his fingers in the space between two bars, showing that a hand can easily fit through to unlatch the bar. I looked at him for a split second then furrowed my brow, looking back at the gate.
“Uh, guys?” Vanessa said. Unlike Ben and me, she was looking at the tree to the left of the gate. I pivoted and took a step closer to get a better look at what she pointed at. She was indicating the spot where the supporting bit of iron fencing met the tree. There was no gap between metal and wood; the simple metal bars were coming directly from the tree. The top of the fencing poked through the trunk, at about eye level to me, and continued its arch, breaking only where the gate section was to allow it to swing open. I followed it with my eyes and saw that it was the same on the other side. Somehow, it was part of the trees, jutting out of them as if it were something natural. Nessa touched the area around the puncture gently and pulled her hand back, showing us her fingertips which were covered in a shiny, deep red, sticky substance. She looked between the two of us with a confused and slightly alarmed expression. I couldn’t shake the feeling that the tree was sort of bleeding where the metal came out of it. What the hell was this?
A sudden screeching tore my attention away from the gate and made the three of us look around, searching for the source. It was a cacophony of bird-like caws, croaks, and whistles. There was no harmony to it, just a blast of birds calling out at once, the din a mash of different tones. I couldn’t see anything making the noises but I was sure they were coming from in front of us, beyond the gate. I started to open my mouth to ask the others if they saw anything when a new sound froze the blood in my veins. Mixed in with the discordance of the roaring multitude, there was a human scream. I distinctly heard a woman’s voice shriek the name ‘Travis’ and then devolve into a howl of pain.
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2020.08.22 07:24 Tapai1964 Aadhar ke saath mobile link ke tention Aaj hi Khatum kijiye

Online link kare aapke mobile ke saath Aadhar card ko.Bahut hi aashan tarika hay,5minute me ho jayga on line me aapke problem solve ! Yehi sare gimmick wala title aapko milenge you tube me,5 minute ki problem solve ke liye 10 minutes ki video dekhiye aur results hoga zero !
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Pura Bharat me Aadhar card ki kaam bandh hay,sirf chal raha hay Aadhar kendra me .On line ki to baat dur ki ,Bank ,post offices mebhi Aadhar card ke saath mobile ki link bandh hay, kare to fir kya kare .
Bhaiya me hu na,chinta choriye,sudhdh Hinglish me likh raha hu pad lijiye aur age badiye,aapka problem solve ho jayegi.Aap ke yis mamle ki tension yehi topics saath hi Khatum ho jayga,trust me ..
Kisi bhi bajase aap ne aapna mobile ko Aadhar card ke saath link nehi kiya ,jo bahut hi jaruri hay Bank transaction me,aur agar provident fund ki amount ko aapke account me pane ke liye to Aadhar ke saath mobile ki link chahiyei.
Mobile ye computer me open kore udai ki site fir aapna problem chuniye, mobile me link karna hai , mobile number change karne ko hay, spelling mistakes hay aapke naam ki form filling kijiye,bilkul aashan hay,fir appointment time milega aapko saath me meetings date .
Print nikal lijiye aur pohuch jaiye Aadhar kendra me.Badiya sa setup hay unka service dene ki bahut sare counter hay unha pe.monitor me aapke token number aayega,aur aap agar thoda sa jhappi le rahe they,to Mike me anounce hoga aapke naam,pohuch jaiye couner me,alag alag counter me services mil raha hay.
Man lijiye aapne bhulgaye ye aapko malum nehi tha,ki appointment lena ki ,to fir kya kiya jay ? Koi problem ne hi siha jaiye aur kahiye mujhe aapna aadhar card ki sudhar karna hay appointment dijiye ,woh de dega appointment aapko .Sirf charge 50 rupiya ke jaga pe, laag jay ga 100 rupiya,baas itna hi farak hay !
Aadhar ke saath mobile ke link,email id add karna,bio metric sudhar sab ho jay ga,unha pe .Fir aapko Uski ek print bhi diya jayga unha se,saath me aapke apointment ki copy bhi.
Aap ko wait karna hoga iske baad 20din se 90 din tak,Yisi samay ke ander hi ,aapke aadhar card aur mobile linked ho jay ga. Baas itne dino ke tension khatum hogaye aapke,aaj ke liye itna hi ,comments bhejo,sirs !
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Hey, I haven't been seeing anyone lately, mostly because going on dates is pretty impossible right now. Hahaha, and getting to know someone online is pretty difficult too since it isn't as engaging as connecting in person.
I've been craving for something genuine, deep, and personal, but it looks like this pandemic isn't going to end anytime soon. So here I am, trying my luck. I'm not used to taking things slow, but maybe this is the best time to do so, and try. There's a beauty din nmn to it, I'm just pretty intense I guess? I'm ready to commit to talk, hang out with you virtually, and get to know you. Let's see where this will take us. If the situation would allow, sure, let's go on a date sa car mo or anywhere.
Facts about me,
I'm 23, a copywriter.
I love dogs, I love engaging in philosophical talks.
Liberated.
Bookworm. Film buff. Into astronomy.
Straightforward.
If you want this connection, I'll be waiting for your DM.
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